Well, I now fit into a size 10. Can you believe it, me, a size 10!!! It's unreal. I also can now wear my husbands jeans. He wears a 33. I've never been this small in the 11 years we've been together. This has been an amazing 8 months. I saw Dr. Chapin and he thinks he can do good things with me.  I got denied on my initial claim to insurance but I am in the middle of appealing it.  Hopefully it will go through.  I can't live with the excess skin. It's the one thing bringing  me down and not feeling totally satisfied an happy with my progress. I know that is ridiculous, but I can't help it. Everyone says I'm done, but I can't see it because I cannot see past the skin.  Don't get me wrong, I am thrilled I had surgery and thrilled with the changes, it's not like I'm miserable, I just have my good days and bad days. But I think we're all like that no matter where we are, even people who haven't gone through all this. I have skinny friends who have good days and bad days, so I'm not too worried about it. What ever is meant to happen will happen!!  In the meantime, I'm still enjoying the ride!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, it's been awhile again - LOL!! I'm not very good at getting this updated. As of this morning, I am 168. That is 117 pounds since surgery and 131 total.  I put my husband's jeans on last week and could button them, couldn't zi[p them yet, but it will come soon enough.  Things have been a little rough lately.  I just found out when I went to see someone, that I probably am Bipolar.  That was hard to take, but it did explain a lot.  It breaks my heart a little though, my husband is Bipolar as well and it seems as if genetics kicked us in the ass!!  We are dealing with our son who is ADHD and just recently told that he is quite possibly early onset Bipolar.  In addition to dealing with all of that, I have some other major issues that I'm dealing with.   But things seem to be on an upswing, so that is good.   I did get a promotion at work last week!!  I am now our Commercial Lines Manager. It's one step closer to my ultimate goal and my "successing" plan that we worked on last year in Chambersburg!!  So things are definately looking up!  I don't have much more weight to lose to goal before plastics. I have to make an appointment for a consult so the expert can tell me how much more weight I need tobe at before he'll consider anything. 

Well, that's all for now. I know I promise this all the time, but I'll try to get better with updating.

Well, it's been a week since I lost anything.  I've put some feelers out and who knew - not enough calories. Who ever thought that would be a problem - LOL!! I think I'm supposed to be getting around 1,000 calories a day. I've been averaging 650-750. If I go much higher than that, I start to panic. I'm going to try real hard to get the count up.  Today I got up to 820.  I'm trying. It's hard though.  Anyway, on the good news front, my tests came back good. No cancer cells or pre-cancer cells. I still have to go every 6 months for a PAP until I get 3 in a row that are clean.  I only got to 2 last time before the abnormal results came back, so now I have to start my 3 all over again - oh well, better safe than sorry!!

I'll update and let you know how the increased calories seem to work.