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Saw Dr. Kurian, wanted a fill bc I've put on weight - resulting from the 2 wks of steriods, but, she said no.  Thank God I have a good, responsible doctor who wouldn't just "yes" me and do what I tell her to. I think this is how some people get into trouble with their band.  However, that being said, others have troubles at no fault of their own, their bodies just reject the foreign substance.

As I was saying, I put on 10lbs in Jan from the prednisone and have since lost like 5 of it. I've also started exercising again now that I am no longer with flu symptoms.  But, right now my prorities are to keep weight stable and to find a new job.  I am in the worst possible work situation of my life.

Life has been tough lately, not the band or the weight loss but my life. I am working for 2 people I don't respect and have serious cash flow problems.  While my checks haven't bounced, I have been denied my payroll on multiple occasions. I am also making less than I have in 10 years. I am on the verge of losing my home and am scared. This has caused me to not eat as well as I could; drink a little more and be a be it depressed. I also just ended a relationship with someone who I thought could have been the 'one' (rather he ended it bc of distance and georgraphy).  I am thankful that with the band, I don't have much of an appetite and eat bc I am supposed to.  I am also thankful that when I rush, I get sick.  I need 2013 to be a better year.  2012 got me healthy but, 2013 needs to get me stable.

I need to kick up the exercise. I want to be 150 before the end of the year.  Possible yes, probable - perhaps not. I haven't walked the bridge in ages as I am working 80hr work weeks and its frickin' dark by 530PM.  What the hell.  

I'd love to walk in the morning, but, my fat ass cannot get up early enough to do so.  

Need to figure our a way to do this.

 Haven't posted in a few months.  Probably bc life is well life and I am doing well. I am actually in Jamica right now on a business trip and I have been sick sinc I landed on Thursday. I think its the water. I cannot keep much of anything down but toast and rice which is funny bc normally, I cannot eat either.  However, when you have a stomach virus you go to the bland and boring!  I think I maybe the only person ever to lose weight from a vacation, I wouldn't know till tomorrow when I get home and can weigh myself. 

I'm scheduled to see my dtr next week - the 19th I think and I'd like to talk to her about some bloodwork as well as maybe a slight fill. I've been eating a lot more as of late but I'm not gaining and my weight loss is flat or non-existent. However, I have been so busy at work that my exercise routine has suffered. Its hard to walk the bridge home at night after a 10 hour day. While it would certaintly brightenmy mood, its not fair to the puppies at home waiting for their walks. So, I don't.   

10 years ago today I had my Gastric Bypass….And, it failed ...I was 305lbs.  Since that day, 10 years ago…

·        I lost 130lbs
·        I had a Lower Body Lift, a tummy tuck and lipo (6/04)
·        I left my ex-husband (7/04)
·        I got a divorce (2/06)
·        I had a breast lift, a reduction and a brachioplasty – arm lift (3/06)
·        I walked away from my 6-figure wallstreet job to go back to school (5/07)
·        I started my MBA (1/08)
·        I threw out my back, had a bulging disk and started gaining weight (7/09)
·        I graduated with honors (9/09)
·        I re-gained 75lbs (6/10)
·        I spoke to a surgeon about a revision (8/10)
·        I got a revision – Band over Bypass (6/11)
·        I was laid off (10/11)
·        I found a job (6/12)
·        I re-lost the 75lbs I gained (8/12)

A lot can happen in 10 yrs.  Weight loss surgeries fail can and will FAIL.  It doesn’t matter if which surgery you have - stomach stapling, RNY, DS, Band, sleeve, etc.  People Fail  - whether it be the patient or the doctor.  In my case, my doctor was VERY conservative with my pouch size and as such, in my opinion, I was set up for failure. Pre-RNY, I was a volume eater.  I was not a sweet eater not was I a grazer but boy could I eat. So, I thought the RNY would fix that.  It did for awhile, but, with a pouch that wasn’t as small as others,  I continued to overeat.

Fast forward to 2011, I am 250lbs.  I investigated both a BOB, an RNY revision and a DS. I consulted 2 fabulous doctors, Dr. Mitchell Roslin and Dr. Marina Kurian. I went with Dr. Kurian.  Both used to be in practice with Dr. Leitman, at Lenox Hill, back in 2002 and knew me, my habits and my personality from 7-8 years of support group attendance.

Today, I am 10yrs post-op RNY and 14 mos post-op BOB.  Will the Band fail like the RNY, maybe?  If I believe everything others on these boards say, yes it will.  But, you know what, if it does, I can fix it again. I am lucky to live in a country where Doctors are always looking to improve what already exists and/or discover something new.  

Don't let anyone tell you you CANNOT!  I know its cliche, but, you can do anything you set your mind too.  And, if you encounter obstacles, seek help.  Just educate yourself as much as possible.  Don't follow the pack or be bullied into something you don't want.  If you want something bad enough, find a way to get it.