heathercross
January 2004
1-15-04 My Lower Body Lift w/ BC/BC Personal Choice PPO was Denied! They said it was Cosmetic! I need to prove failed medical management, intertrigo (skin breakdown)! I have no skin breakdown and I am not the type to make something up and commit insurance fraud! So, in a few weeks, I will not only smaller (less skin) but, less some $13,600!!!! OH WELL!
1-19-04 Ok, so, I have been feeling LIKE SHIT since I got denied for my Lower Body Lift (LBL)...Everyone keeps telling me to appeal....But, I have no back pain, I have no rashes, I cannot commit insurance fraud (I work for an Insurance Company) and I don't wanna fake a rash so that I get approved only to find out later I have a worse rash than the one I faked. People keep telling me to rub "sand paper" on my skin. About a dozen people told me that. ARE YOU FRICKIN KIDDING me???I know that sounds self ritgious, but, I rather pay for it than know I broke the law. Plus, I don't know if I could go under the knife knowing I did that. I mean, when I had my gastric bypass 1 1/2 yrs ago, I did it out of NEED and the desire for a better life. Now, my Lower Body Lift is a little bit about comfort, a little bit about vanity and mostly about feeling normal. The role/tire around my abdomen reminds me everyday that I was once over 300+. It also restricts my movement, prevents me from doing and being who I am and also from dressing in a smaller size. Why is it that @ 180lbs I am STILL WEARING A SIZE 16 (and often a TIGHT size 16). That is Crazy! So, after many days of being depressed....I had a LONG CHAT with my mom and she has offered to pay for the WHOLE PROCEDURE! I AM SOOOOOOO EXCITED! I am gonna call Patti/Jacki @ Dr Abramson's office tomorrow and pick a day. I am either gonna do it the Afternoon of February 12th or Tuesday, March 16th in the Afternoon. I am also gonna book a Hotel Room in NYC for the week following the procedure. I figure, I wanna be local if I have some complications and as soon as I get the 4-6 drains out, I can go home. I am also gonna go home via train b;/c my girlfriend, Michele, told me the 1 1/2 hr car ride home back to Jersey was the WORST EXPERIENCE EVER so, I am assuming the ride to Philly would be just as bad. But, she went home the next day and I would be in a hotel for the week. I CANNOT WAIT I AM SOOOOOO EXCITED! I cannot ever phantom having a FLAT TUMMY! It is sooo beyond me. I cannot wait.
1-31-04 I have gained some weight...Although I don't feel it or see it in my clothes. The scale is telling me otherwise. I haven't been to the gym, regularly, in mos. I did go to a Body Contouring Class last week and it kicked my ass so hard that I was sore for DAYS! So, I have realized that although this surgery allows me to eat how I want when I want, I need to exercise if I don not intend to DIET! As long as I exercise, I can eat whatever I WANT! So, I got up at 6am this morning and went to the gym! It was only 30 min on the bike, but, it was close to 300 calories burned and it was 15 mi. So, unless I commit to a minimum of 30-45 minutes a day (until it gets warm enough to walk to and from work again)...I am gonna be, once again a PORKER!
