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I've started the 3 month regimen required by Aetna.  I'm really excited about a possible fall RNY surgery.  After 2 years of debate.....I'm finally officially on this track.

July 24 2009
So I'm DONE with all my appointments.  It seems a little much to me that all the professionals Aetna required me to see knew I was there for insurance purposes and we had moments of rolling our eyes about it.  As  they were being paid.....I did not want those dollars wasted and I went to each one with questions.  I'm glad because it was helpful.  I only had to see them once a month so I had time to think about what I wanted to know from them.  I want to use EVERY opportunity to gain the most from this whole experiance.  Tomorrow is Monday and I will be calling the surgons office to see if they have all the info. required from everyone else to submit to insurance.  I'll be anxiously waiting........
In the mean time, I am keeping VERY busy working two jobs for the summer.  This is really helping with passing the time.  With any luck and alot of effort, next summer I will look forward to shopping for shorts that are not a size 22.  I can't wait to feel like my body and who I am are more in sinc.  I'm not looking for perfection.......just cooperation.

Aug 5 2009
All was submitted to insurance yesterday.  When I called the dr.office to check, they said I should wait a minimum of two weeks before expecting news from Aetna.  They also said everything looked good, and they don't have many that come back with a no for the answer.  This is hopeful!  Now that I have emotionally vested in this......it's hard to imagine not having it .....or how I would handle hearing or dealing with a no.  Of course I will fight it, but what if ultimately I must accept it?  I guess that I will cross that bridge when I come to it.

Aug 6 2009 
Every once in a while I think about how it is living in a body that does not work very well for me.  Then I feel guilty that I am being dis-respectiful.  I am greatful to have a body that actually HAS worked for me in so many ways!  It gets up every day and moves me around.  It bore me 4 very healthy children without major problems.  It rarely is sick.  It has incredable stamina that has run many miles and hiked up mountain trails that few have traveled.  Then I remember that this whole journey is about being good back.  How much better it will feel hauling a few (or a lot) less pounds up those hills.  This battle is not about me or the body I was born with.........it's about the baggage that needs to be left on the wayside to make room for the things I have yet to learn.  I'm just done with this chapter.  :)
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