So, today's the day....my very 1st surgiversary! I wanted to take the time to post, so that I can look back on this and know what I was thinking, feeling, etc.

I've said it so many times, but...I just feel so blessed! Before surgery, when I was so sick, I used to wonder why God was punishing me--giving me so much pain and dispair. But, now....175ish lbs lighter, I finally know why I had to withstand all that pain. I know I had to do it to prove to myself that I was sooooo much stronger than I thought. But, also...I needed to endure all the pain, so that I could know how wonderful this truly is. Had I never known the pain, I would not know the pleasure and joy I feel now!

My whole life has changed...I have changed. It's not just the way I look. It's so much more! I don't worry nearly as much as I used to. I was always worried about how far I had to walk, would a restaurant have tables becauae I wouldn't fit in a booth, what kind of people would be there, would i feel out of place, etc....

I just don't think about all that stuff now. Instead, I think about what kind of fun I am going to have, or the things I need to get done--I think about doing, rather than not doing, being rather than not being. It just blows my mind!

I am soooooooo grateful! I feel so lucky! I will NOT waste this chance....this amazing miracle that God has brought into my life!

Life is soooo sweet! =) (Even without sugar!LOL)

So, I know it sounds crazy! But, I am so thrilled that I am now, OBESE! When I started this journey I was 340lbs and I was 325 when I came home from the hospital. That put my BMI in the Super Morbidly Obese category! But, now 6 1/2 months out and down 110lbs since surgery and 125lbs all together, at 215lbs, I am now OBESE! It feels good to have the "Morbidly" part gone! I was so sick when I started this and I knew that I wouldn't live that long the way I was. Plus, I really wasn't LIVING at all! So, I just thought I would post because it really makes me happy. I don't know if I was really happy before. I think the fat and the bad health and the inability to move, breathe, walk, LIVE, was just blocking all the positive feelings. So, now, with 125lbs off of my body....let the good times keep flowing! And, maybe one day soon, I might even be "Overweight!" LOL

That's right! It is finally, finally, finally here! I have dreamed of this day for sooo long, but honestly didn't know if it would ever really come. But, it has.....Last night, for the first time, I went down to 0 units of insulin...wait, let me repeat that, in case you mised it...0, zero, zip, zilch units of insulin!!!!!!!!!! And, more importantly, this morning, my sugar was 108--lower than it's been in quite a while. My numbers have been fine, but 108 is fabulous! I will admit I am up a bit earlier than normal. Usually, I test about about 8-9am, sometimes even 10am, and today I am testing at 7:15am. But, ya know what? I don't care. I am going to enjoy this!!!!! I will enjoy every little bit of it. No more needles! I can't even believe that! No more worrying about bringing refrigerated medication in a cooler, when I go away on vacation! I just feel healthier than I did yesterday. I mentally, feel better knowing there's one less medication in my system. My body is regulating and becoming, dare I say, normalish.

As you can see, I am just plain psyched! I am off to get ready for my Good Samaritan Hospital Support Group meeting. I can't wait to tell them all my fabulous news! I love my RNY and I love myself for finally doing it!

Have a fabulous day, I know I will!

I have finally crossed the 100lb mark and the 100lbs since surgery! I am currently down 103lbs since surgery 118lbs total!!!!!
I am really proud of myself! I have worked really hard, made many changes and I feel so much better! I am really on my way! I love my RNY and all of my friends and supporters! I never could've done this on my own!

 Thank you to Stephanie L. for this most FABULOUS Century Card!!

 

 
     
       
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