Of course Ive had problems, issues, transfer addictions and detox. I am human, I am normal, I am you and me.
I am at the end of my 2 yrs and starting my 3rd year. One thing Ive found out, just when you think you think youve outsmarted,outdated,outfit the programn, there comes something else that you have to take care of. Did I t hink this was going to be a walk in the park? Cake walk at that? Subconsciously probably so. Cross addictions, and other medical issues have been some of the hardest things I have been and am dealing with. But to no avail. It felt pretty good walking into my surgeons office today for my past post2yr op appt to be made and jaws still drop. Yes I like to look like this. Has it been ultimate happiness now that I am skinny? No..Have I suffered from depression, anxiety, fears, etcetcetc. losing myself? who am I? and am I pretty at all?
Gosh..I must be human after all. I hope if nothing else , this post helps you realize, we still fall, we get up, we fall down, we get up and this IS A LIFETIME change. to take shortcuts, quit taking vitamins  and taking care of ourselves, is only an injustice to ourselves and we are the ones that will feel the results from it! Believe me! I have, i am and I continue to daily do better!  I am at 145lbs. Not alot of regrets. Wish I had more local postop resort 1 year and beyond? Real life now! and whats to come when I am older? anyway..all for now! Best to all!Cindy

Tan, Fit and Fabulous? Thats what I keep telling my new self that I am seeing in the mirror. I still cannot believe that I am as small as my daughther now(Actually i am 1 pound lighter! neener!neener!) I am still trying to get used to all of this. The buying New clothes hasnt happened yet. I have gotten some clothes from Goodwill because I know that I will fluctuate alot the next year or so as well and dont want to drop a whole lot of $ into clothing. I still like my comfy baggy clothes. I look like a baglady at times. I put on a little skinny girl short just above the knees dress for the first time in years and years. I felt naked! But i dressed up and went to my surgery support group. I felt really good when I got there and it just helped me to further continue this wonderful journey of Finding myself that I am on! 

Congrats to all my friends on here that have done so wonderfully! Every day is the chance to do it right! And if we dont get it right today, dont give up! Try again tomorrow! Be blessed and know that you are loved! Loving yourself is the single most important gift that you can ever give to YOU!!!

OH yeah I weigh 158 as of today! I am at what you would call Goal because I never really made one. That way if i dont have bounceback I wont be sad or anything. I dont want to be super thin. I just wanted to be healthy!!!

I am staying put at this weight. I cant get motivated to exercise! My hypoglycemic drops are less and less as long as I do not eat out!. Food choices are becoming really boring for me. I still dont have any real appetite, or cravings. I am glad for that. I did eat a decent meal last night for dinner and it actually looked like the plate that the dietician showed me a month ago that I was supposed to be able to eat/fit in the tiny stomach I have now. That part concerns me. If I am able to eat more now, then will the weight come back on?  Its hard staying motivated to keep this up. I guess I am still having issues with the mental part. I dont want to be th inking about food all the time!@ Thats why I was fat? When i thought about it and shoved food in my mouth all the time!. Dang...... I know I will get past this. COngrats on others that have gotten such wonderful results and are dealing with the headgame better than I am.! ANy comments are appreciated!@

I am not at the original goal I made for myself 145 but with everybody it seems like haveing regain, i t hink this weight is what I would regain back to and be ok with. Hopefully I will just maintain now and not have to worry about it. I am having some medical issues tho. Going back to the doctor tuesday for labwork and stuff.


Hope everyone is doing well. !