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Bouncing between 185 & 190 for the past month or so.  So much going on, just haven't paid much attention to the scale lately. Steady in a size 12 jeans and M/L tops...   Started a new job & so far it's going great.  Pacemaker is working 50% of the time, so actually did need it.  Good news, but still wish I didn't have to have it.  Haven't had much chance to get new pics up lately.  I'll do that soon.  I want to lost 15 to 20 more lbs at least before I go in to see about having my tummy done.  Right now, I'm about 50 lbs lighter than when I graduated high school.  The attention is different, but mostly nice.  People don't look away like they used to.  I just want to shove it in the psychologist's face though.  Told me that I had to be over eating when my doctor was getting after me for not eating enough.  I honestly think that all the medications I was on had something to do with that.  Figure over a dozen meds and half had the side effect of weight gain.  On top of that my diabetes was out of control.  Scary thinking how much different things are now.  Nothing but vitamins now & no surgery or weight related problems.  Except for the whole heart thing... inherited from mother's side... I'm doing great.  I do find myself thinking back alot lately though.  Just amazing how much difference there is in my life now.  I'm able to get out camping & fishing & even play at the park with my kids.  I'm really looking forward to getting to the state fair this year.  Last time I got to go, I was fat and miserable.  This time should be much better.  I have to laugh at myself sometimes...  I keep telling my boyfriend I want to go to Jamaica because they like the girls with the big butts there.... He just looks at me and says "Honey, I hate to tell ya, your butt's nice, but there's not much there anymore"    Well, I still want to go to Jamaica... might even look for a swimsuit for the first time in many years.  Anyway, nothing exciting to report, but getting closer to my goal:)

A lot has happened in the past few weeks.  I'm down to 192 lbs now.  A total of 186 lbs lost so far & counting:)  I'm down into a Size M/L/12

I had a pacemaker put in on 2/28/08.  I had a couple episodes of passing out & my heart rate was running in the 30's & 40's.  The doctor down here thought I had a bowel obstruction, so they sent me up to my surgeon.  Well they were seeing my bypass...not an obstruction. Luckily, since they don't deal with gastric patients there, they sent me back home to be seen... or I'd still be working & worrying about passing out again.  The same doc had sent me home 2 weeks before all this because they couldn't find anything wrong except the low heart rate.  Well, long story short, the docs up home sent me to Iowa Methodist & 2 days later I had a dual lead pacemaker put in. 

So far, I seem to be doing pretty well.  I'm no longer exhausted all the time... Just sore & pretty bruised up.  I'm off work until the first of April & just taking some time for me right now.  I posted a few more pictures... What a difference a year can make!!