Ok, so it's been forever since I have been on here. Busy with life and work. The most shocking news of all is I am married. I never thought I would get married and never really had the desire too. George and I have been together almost 5 years and last August we got married at the courthouse and tried to keep the marriage a secret. Im not good at lying so by November we had to let the cat out of the bag. It's been a crazy experience to say the least. We have custody of all 3 of his children. So now I have 2-16 year olds, a 12 year old, a 7 year old, and lets not forget our Foreign Exchange Student from Hong Kong. Needless to say we have a housefull. Marriage is a lot of hard work and I have to say it is taking me awhile to get use to the idea of sharing EVERYTHING. It's good though and the kids are alot of fun...we are trekking our way through the whole blended family thing. My weight is pretty steady at around 187. I had got down to 177 but only for a day. I am pretty active still and my diet isn't that great so I can see why I havent lost much more. I go between a size 10-12 and for the most part pretty comfortable.

Well I have much going on lately, the death of my Uncle, my mother going into surgery to donate her kidney, financial stress, and Wednesday was the last day of my old job, I start training on Monday for a new job. I am failing my tool right now. I am emotionally eating. It is out of control. I am not following my plan. I feel like a huge failure and I have been hiding. I feel like I have so much on my plate right now and I need to keep it all together but I have just lost it. I have lost and gained the same 3lbs for 2 months now. I am walking but not as regular as usual. I can not regulate my sleep so that it is normal. Im a big heeping mess right now. I think part of me is sabotaging my weight loss right now because I am pretty uncomfortable with how I look right now. Granted I do feel great. I am having a very hard time with how I look in the mirror, It is not me I see and it is scary to me. I never imagined the emotional side of this would be so hard. My sister told my mom the other day that she thinks I look weird, and sick. My Mom thinks I look great but says sometimes she has a hard time realizing that it is me. She did tell my sister, that I am having the same issue with how I look. I think it's because we have never seen me this thin, My sister and I are at odd's right now, which is another huge stress, but we will work through it. I love her and she will always be my sister. I did tell my mom that it's funny that she say's I look weird because the thinner I get the more I think I look like her! lol~  
I am starting a new position on Monday, I am staying with the same company, but just changing departments. I have been in the same position for 4 years and have burnt out. I am hoping the new job with take away some stress and I will be on my feet instead of sitting for 10 hours a day. Plus I will no longer be graveyard, which should help regulate the sleeping.

http://www.thenewstribune.com/news/local/tacoma/story/300761.html

The story above is about my mother. She is the one donating her kidney. She truely is an amazing woman. I posted on the RNY board that I was being troubled because along with all the good, blogs have popped up that have been trashing the story and really being mean. I take everyhting to heart, but I stopped reading everyhting and have calmed down a little. My mom is so not concerned about anything, She knows her actions speak for themselves. She has tremendous faith. We love her lot's and I am so thankful she is my mother, we joke that she is Julie Andrews, we can just see her running up a mountain side and busting out in song~! Just a happy person who loves life. 
Her surgery is March 11 so if you have the time please say a little prayer or send a good vibe or whatever you believe, we need all the strength for them that day and the surgeons. 

Life has been a little crazy lately. Good and bad and crazy. 
Let's get the bad out of the way. 
I had an Uncle pass away about 2 weeks ago. It was my biological Dad's brother, Uncle Willie. I have been pretty estranged from my Dad's family since I was about 10, but this was the only Uncle I had contact with. He had 2 boys that were a year older and a year younger than my son. It was a pretty tragic loss for me, he was only 54 and had hit a pretty bad bump in his life and overdosed on pills. He truely was an amazing person, always had time for everyone and loved people. I lived up in Marysville, near him for a year, and he took good care of me, Him and his wife would babysit for me, have me over for dinner so our boys could play. If you needed anything he would be there for you. When I would be angry and frustrated with my Dad he would set me straight and tell me that he was still my Dad and not to say those things about him. He was an amazing father, he loved his boys so much. He spent time as a drug and alcohol counselor, was into acupuncture, loved to hunt, and was very involved with our tribe, Tulalip. He was the one that helped my mom enroll my sister and I. I have never tragically lost someone and I have to say I think this hit me harder than I thought it would. He was my link to my dad's family. Thankfully my Dad has remained sober the last 9 months and we have reestablished a relationship. The funeral was very emotional and long...a little much for me, and my sister refused to attend so I had to go it alone. My Dad's entire family was there, cousins that I had grown up with until I was 10, and then hadn't seen. It was great to connect with everyone and most didn't recognize me. I think grieving is a process and It takes alot out of you. I still find myself tearing up on occasiona and can here his voice as I am writing this.

So I am down to 200lbs and can not make it beyond the 200lbs mark. I can't wait to see 199 on my scale. I thought by Newyears I would see it but I have really slowed down with my weight loss. I know something is happening because I can actually fit in a size 12 pair of Levis. I am going to start training for the Tacoma 1/2 Marathon. I am venturing to a new job, I am leaving the comfort of being a Crew Scheduler and will be returning to the airport as a Customer Service Lead. I am excited about not sitting on my butt for 10 hours a day but nervous about doing something different. Crossing my fingers I am making a good decision.

Just a quick recap of this week in football! 

Lincoln Abes- Season over! 

NW Rams 4th Grade team. The regular season is over but my oldest nephew Frank played in the allstar game. He had an awesome game and his team (I believe he was South) won 13-6.
They also had their team Banquet and he was nominated the MVP and my younger nephew Jeffrey was nominated Rookie of the year! He is a 3rd grader playing on the 4th grade team.

Huskies Lost 29-23 to oregon State. Scary moment with Locker being taken of the field in ambulance after a helmet to helmet hit. He is doing better and actually returned to watch the last few minutes of the game. 

Seattle Seahawks- Monday night football rocked. We went to the game and sat in the corporate suite. It was an awesome game! 24-0! Way to shut the 49er's

This past week has been interesting to say the least. Recently I have started having a issue with certain foods and smells. I have been sick to my stomach with even a whiff of something that my stomach does not agree with. I have also noticed more of a restriction, which could be because of my nerve endings growing back. I also have started hair loss....it's coming out in the clump fulls and I can start to see some thinning. I also had my first experience with dumping. I had been testing the waters with sugar and I think my body finally got pissed and said F-you. I had 2 chocolate chip cookies. Within 15 minutes I was dry heaving, foaming, dizzy, sweating, and could not move. Even the next morning my stomach felt awful. It scared me straight! 
On a more positive note, I am down to 217.9. Today I pulled out my drivers license and realized I weigh less than the 225 my license has said for the last 10 years. I have never weighed less than what my drivers license stated...crazy! Another wonderful thing that happened this week was that last night we went to a Seahawks game, we parked 1.1 miles from the stadium because I didn't want to pay the $40 for parking. I was amazed that I walked that with ease, walked up and down and all around that stadium and never was winded and then my son and I jogged back to the car! Good exercise without any effort. 
And now on a more personal note. I love my boyfriend (George)  so much. It amazes me what this surgery has done for our sex life. I thought it was pretty good before, but now it's more intimate and meaniful because to be quite honest we can get closer to each other.  Sorry, I did forwarn you that it was personal. Plus instead of sitting on our butts he tries to make sure when we spend time we do active stuff because he knows that makes me happy!

Lincoln Abes Won! 37-0 We shut out Timberline and my son played the enitre game. He had a sack and a few tackles and was flying all over that field.
NW Rams 4th Grade 3?-6 it was an ugly loss!
UW- they finally won against Stanford
Seahawks-lost in overtime to Cleveland....we gave up in the end!

On a positive note I ran the 5k this weekend, at the lowest weight of my adult life and fit into a pair of size 14 jeans! 

Woohoo! Liz