I am so thankful for my Sleeve

Well its been 2 and 1/2 months since my surgery and im down 90 lbs fromm y highest weight and 80 from surgery day. feeling pretty good about the weight loss but i have had some Emotional ups and downs.. my marriage seems to be suffering more now then ever now that i have more confidence and higher self-esteem i wont take any abuse from anyone anymore.. in one way that is a good thing in another it can take a toll on relationships where i have let people walk all over me for so many years.. my wife is having a hard time with the changes and is noticing me no longer needing her co-dependently.. i feel more as an individual and she doesnt like that we are not growing together anymore.. i hope and pray we can work through this.. it has been a rough few months .. *sigh* .. i guess thats all i have to log for now.. i really hope everything gets better

so its the 3rd now and things have gotten quite a bit better with all the pain.. i have very minimal gas pain today and some tightness in my tummy where my incisions are.. but for the most part.. all is well!

I did struggle with appetite today.. craving cheesburgers, fried foods, etc.. but i think that is normal.. i will take it day by day and hopefully my lifestyle and desires will change.

 I also broke 300 lbs today for the first time in years and that was pretty satisfying.. this morning i was 296 then this evening after filling with liquids and such i was back up to 300 again.. kinda weird.. im just gonna say i am 296 lol..

I am also very curious today about the size of my new stomach.. i wish i could hold something in my hand that i could reference to being the size of my stomach.. in my mind i think its 7 inches long and 1 inch across.. but i think i am way off lol.. anyway hopefully ill get an answer on that soon..

          So its been 3 days since my surgery and this day has been easier.. i didnt even need pain meds today! I was able to get in to protein shakes made with almond milk and a few snacks! overall i had 370 calories and 60.5 grams of protein.. not too bad i dont think.. 
         I do still have pain when i try and take a deep breath, i mostly feel it in my shoulders and ribcage.. hopefully that will be even better tomorrow.. My stomach still feels tight where the incisions are.. im assuming that is the sutures underneath.
        Also today was my first day to havea bowel movement since surgery and that made me happy knowing my body is working properly LOL!
       I am still having a bit of trouble getting all the fluids down.. 64oz is alot to get down when you have such a tiny stomach!
anyway i think thats about it for today.. we will see how tomorrow goes!

so today has been pretty good. i went and got 3000 cc of fluids through IV at the clinic. after that i went to costco to pick up some protein drinks that were clear.. pretty good stuff.. 10 protein to 60 calories. Felt pretty weak walking around costco but i know it was good for me. finally got home.. took some more pain meds and slept for 3 hours..

After i woke up around 5 i took some more pain meds and continued drinking the protein water and had a few spoons of chicken broth.. tasted great too

I am a little concerned in the lack of caloric intake but im hearing it might be normal the first week or so before i can get in some heavier foods..

so this pretty much been my day.. o yeah, when i went in for surgery i was 300 lbs.. today i was 308, must be all the fluids they are giving me.