Today is a little more tough for me.  I woke up with full-blown cold and flu symptoms this morning... so I am hovering somewhere between not wanting to eat ANYTHING and wanting to stuff myself full of simple carbs.  *Sigh.*  I had the ham and cheese soup for breakfast and am in the process of getting in a TON of liquids.  Hopefully, I can get back on track with lunch and dinner!

Still diuresing, btw.

Well, I've made it through Day 2 of the Pouch Test.  So far, I am pretty freaking amazed.  I have had a few bouts of carb headaches and perhaps some associated mood swings, but overall I feel good.  My energy levels are decent.  I'm not constantly thinking ahead to the next meal or next snack.  It is very much like people comment... like going back to those early post-surgical days.  Although I am looking forward to some solid foods tomorrow.  :)

And I am curious to see what the scale says Monday morning.  :P

Well, I made it through day 1 without incident.  This morning marks the second day of all liquids on the pouch test.  Surprisingly, I feel pretty good.  Minimal carb headaches.  And surprise, surprise- I didn't wake up wanting to nibble on everything in the cabinet.  Pretty cool. 

I've also noticed some pretty significant diuresing taking place; I dont know if this is a side effect of getting back to a more appropriate diet or not.  Hmm... will have to research a bit.

Ok, today was day one of my 5 Day Pouch Test.  I think I did fair.  I had 2 protein shakes- banana chocolate coffee flavored and a cup of soup from Kaye's book- the Ham and Cheese soup.  YUM!  Actually, it was so rich that I could only eat a half-portion of it.  I feel pretty good.  My energy levels are decent.  I am a bit moody and head-achy- I think the carb withdrawal has hit me a bit harder than I anticipated.  All in all, it's not been too terrible though.  (Ok, I need to 'fess up.... I did have a tiny bite of the cheese and ham from my friend's pizza.  Shame on me!)  I nibbled on some apple slices for the card headache and drank some green tea, which helped.  I am also noticing that my appetite is back to the super-low level that I enjoyed immediately after surgery!  I'm feeling quite encouraged.  I don't have access to a scale until Monday, but I am hoping to see some progress!  :)                                                                                                                                                                                                    

i'm horrible at remembering to blog!  seriously.  :P

things have been a bit rough for me the past few months.  my energy levels are quite low; i need to see an endocrinologist but i'm not working often enough for the finances to do so.  i also hit a pretty big depressive slump in march.  the good news is that my mood and my energy levels seem to be on a gradual upswing for the past couple of weeks; i am encouraged by that.

i've also started seeing a therapist for body image issues.  i am pretty depressed and disgusted by the way my body looks after losing 115 pounds in such a short time.  i feel like a melted candle with national geographic boobs.  yeah, cognitively i knew i would face this but it's hitting me much harder on the emotional level.  i feel like i've looked so disgusting for so long that now that i've worked so hard to be a "normal" size i should be able to look sexy and feel confident, right???  well.... i don't.  and it sucks.  i'm working toward plastic surgery but it will be a while before i can afford financing.

speaking of plastics, i'm getting some heinous back pain from those giant saggy boobs!  i've been to multiple doctors and am on muscle relaxers and narcotics... the meds help some but i can't function and i certainly can't work in my job as an icu nurse.  i'm so frustrated.  i need to look into insurance coverage for a reduction.  this is insane!  i saw a chiropractor yesterday and am starting physical therapy next week... i hope it helps! 

sorry to rant so much, but that's my news.

oh, i am also starting the 5 day pouch test today.  my weight loss is slowing down a bit.  i'm officially at 162.5.  so we'll see how this does.  i think i've gotten a little carb addicted and i want to be back on track! 

here's the link if anyone is interested:  http://www.5daypouchtest.com/