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I've decided to have RNY and not LapBand.

I just got back from my second surgery consult (first was for LapBand) and I'm ready. My last diet appointment is 11/1 and I'm penciled in for 11/24 for surgery.

Wow...I can't believe this is really happening. 

Today would have been Rob's 49th birthday.  It will soon be three years (9/25)  since his passing and it still hurts like hell. I put my son to bed early today because I didn't want him to question my sobs. Y'all, I went in my bar, poured his favorite drink (cognac), purchased a pack of cigarettes (same brand that he smoked) and put on some Donny Hathaway. I do this every year.

Today, I felt his presence. I always feel his presence, but today was different...it was really strong.  Last weekend was rough. My basement flooded out, was seen on my local news looking a hot mess (rained out head, no make-up) and my sleep...I'm living on coffee. But I felt him pushing me on to handle the situation without going crazy.

I've accepted his passing, for it was the end of his season. And I thank God for every day that he was in my life and for giving me my son.

I just wanted to share.....

http://www.meteorshowersonline.com/perseids.html

My six year old son is so geeked about this. I overheard him tell my Pops he is going to wish for:

1. MarioKart for Wii
2. Playstation 3

And the one that made me tear up.....

3. My Mommy to be happy.

I was floored by his comment. My lil guy is so mature and so wise. True, I've always been able to fake the funk with others, but not with him. When Rob (my DH)passed, we consoled each other. When my money was funny, he knew not to ask for extras. When the tornado touched down several months ago, it was him that was holding me in the basement.

We ran outside a little while ago (it's 9:19pm CST here) to see if anything was popping yet. Nothing. He looked at me with his big, pretty brown eyes and wanted to know what was I going to wish for. I told him nothing...I already had him.

Video Vixen here I come!!! I'm going to the the next audition because...

I'm APPROVED!!!!!!!

I am waaayyyy beyond excited!!! Thanks DivineShani for listening   to my chronic complaints about the sloowwww approval process. You are my heart!

I will know my surgery date next week. My doc needs to call and request a waiver for my three months of my medically supervised diet. I need to have my hiatal hernia repaired and the medical review board told me that a "peer to peer review" will take care waiver. I was told that although I had enough diets and schmiets, (they require 3), they needed one more. I'm almost half way through, but if I can get it waived it is on!

Lord knows this has been a loooong three years. I'm feeling so blessed right now.

Just wanted to share....