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Well, yesterday it was a year ago that I began this journey.  In that year, my daughter started cutting herself and messing with boys that she had no business messing with; my son had sex at 14; my younger son has battled with IBS and constant asthma problems; my husband decided to go through midlife crisis and have an emotional affair with his first love from high school...; we pretty much got kicked out of our church,  I lost 110 pounds and I can't tell you how awesome it feels to NOT be running to food when the going gets tough.  I exercise every day and don't feel right if I miss it.  Through the grace of God, my daughter is blossoming into a wonderful young woman and is in a good relationship and hasn't cut in over 6 months; my son is struggling with being 15, but he's OK; younger one is doing better, too - but turning 13 is a difficult age regardless.  Husband of 17 1/2 years and I are doing better than ever.  He doesn't need her anymore - we are best friends again, and by the way - he loves the new me!!  The kids and I are looking for a new church but feel God's hand on us whether we're in a building or not.  It's been a LONG year but the timing for my surgery couldn't have been more perfect.  I have struggled as of late with getting all my protein in but I am resolved to do better.  All my labs still look OK (but could be better, I know).  I would still like to lose about 10-15 more, but am in no hurry.  If it comes, it comes.  Same for plastic surgery.  If it comes, it comes.  I feel better.  Have more energy and stamina - almost no back trouble.  My blood pressure and pulse are great...  those are the things that matter!!!

Well, I just typed a rather long post, but then lost it so now the mood is gone.  However, I would like to announce that I am tentatively planning to walk the half-marathon in November, here in San Antonio.  Right now I am a little concerned that I will be able to have the energy to exercise for 3-4 hours, since I am so limited as to what and how much I can eat at once.  I am getting some advice from other WLSers and will probably talk to the dietician, and of course Hubby, the runner, is helping with a workout plan.  Either way, I will at least improve on what I have EVER been able to do, even if I don't make it up to 13 miles.  6 months ago I couldn't even make it one mile without being exhausted.  Now I can go 2-3 and feel fine. 

 

Well, I am feeling quite a bit better now.  We are for sure NOT moving and most likely NOT going to sell the house.  I still don't know about work, since I haven't been offered a job...  I am waiting for the first of this week to hear from the Library.  
The kids and I are going to spend a week in the "country" next week.  My dad has rental property that happens to be empty right now, so we can help get it cleaned up and painted and all that.  The kids can ride the 4-wheeler and go hunting for varmints, and just generally hang around.  I plan to take my sketch book.  
As for the weight, I stopped again for 3 weeks, but am losing again.  Down to 186 - YAY!!  That just seems to be my pattern - lose 10 pounds over a couple of weeks, and then stop for a few weeks...  I am starting to get the really saggy skin.  I had to go down a bra size...  (cup)  It's OK - a small price to pay!

I got my hair cut pretty short.  I had lost so much that it was getting stringy - so now it's about chin level.  I'll post a picture soon.  Now that my face isn't so round, it actually looks good with short hair!!

Gotta run - have a great Summer! 

Well, good news is that I am 189 pounds.  I haven't been here since before the birth of my first child, 16 years ago!
Bad news is that I am having trouble dealing with all the changes in my life currently.  I didn't think that my obsession for food would change to an obsession for any of the other unhealthy things, like drugs, alcohol, sex, etc., BUT  I also didn't know what I WOULD do when stress hit.  I am a strong Christian and am trying desperately to cling to Christ, but in addition to the physical changes associated with this diet / weight loss, etc., I have other physical ailments, namely chronic sinusutis and headaches.  Then there's the teenage kids' issues.  (Why did I want them one year apart?)  And are we moving overseas, or are we NOT moving overseas?  I haven't handled the finances very well as of late, so hubby's taking over but maybe I need to get a job, since my daycare is gone - (they all thought I was moving).  Maybe I need to solicit more daycare.  Maybe I need to just NOT work and take care of myself for a while.  I feel like a real weeney sometimes.  People think it would be stressful to be in a house full of kids all day long, but I think it would be stressful to work OUT THERE all day long.  
Anyway, I put in a couple of calls and plan to go see a therapist or something like that.  I sort of hate that I have gotten to this point, but I also know that I need some help.  
Anyway, sorry this posting isn't very upbeat, but that's just where I am right now.

Yay - I made it under 200 - haven't been here in at least 12 years!  Feels great, but wierd how I still feel "fat."  Seems that's quite normal, though.  I go into stores and see myself in the reflection of the glass door and think, "who is that?"  I can sit in the recliner and the dog has plenty of room to sit next to me, instead of on me! 
I still can't handle any of the protein drinks except Nectar.  I ran out and the new stuff hadn't come in the mail yet so I tried she chocolate Isopure I had in the pantry and if I held my nose it was OK, but otherwise, I can't describe the taste - just strange and unappetizing.  
My poor hair - it's falling out so much - I think I have less than half left.  And what is left is dry and brittle and frizzy.  I am taking Biotin, in addition to my regular regimen and am trusting that it will come back like they say it will - "better than ever." In the meantime, I just pin it up and try not to worry about it.
Kids said they didn't recognize me walking up one day because my hair was up and my neck was so skinny...    Made my day!