I have rescheduled my surgery date.....I needed some extra time to save up my portion of payment.  The hospital I'm going to wants my amount owed up front.  The insurance will pay and then I have to pay in advance or no surgery.  SO MY NEW SURGERY DATE IS AUGUST 3rd, 2009.  I've been dragging my feet alot and not trying protein drinks and not taking my vitamin.  But TODAY is the end of that!!!  I have made some goals and I'm starting to believe they will come true, one day or another.  The day is coming and I'm gonna be ready for it!!!  I have to kids that need me and I need them, so enough stalling and dragging my feet.  I have a wonderful husband that loves me, but I don't love myself.  It's said that you can't love anyone, until you love yourself first.  Well I do love him dearly, but I don't love myself.  I am starting to love myself, because I know I'm going to love the new me.  I can't wait to see myself at goal or even a month or at 6 months PO.  I'm going to love shopping for me, that never happens now.  I'm always shopping for my kids or husband but never for me.  Wow, I'm gonna go broke.  Haha