I went to my consultation with Dr. Orris today and found out after being at his office for nearly two hours that in order to have the lap band procedure done they it as a "two man job" in their office so Dr. DeBarros would be performing my surgery with him.  Well, Dr. DeBarros is not covered under my insurance plan and because of that they wanted me to pay $6,992 for my surgery!!!!  After a while of trying to think of a payment plan I ended up leaving the office extremely sad and when I got to my van I had a complete melt down.  I called my husband and then my m-i-l and had a good cry.  My m-i-l told me not to worry about it and instead of trying to think  of how we can pay for it, to instead try calling my PCP and see about him referring me to someone who is in my network.  I felt so much better after she had suggested that and I don't know why I didn't think of it myself at first.  So, I had my husband give him a call to see what could be done (I was driving home at the time and it was extremely windy out so I didn't want to be on the phone at that time) and while I was in buying a Christmas gift my doctors nurse gave me a call and I have an appointment now for Monday to talk to him and get my referral going.  =)

On a good note about today though, I found out that my insurance plan covers both the RNY and the lap band procedure so that made me very happy.  I also found out that because of the fact that technically I don't need a referral that I am basically considered approved from the minute that the surgeon gives his go ahead for me to have the surgery done.  That made my day!!!!!!!!  Hopefully it won't take long to get me in to see a new doctor and I can be on my way very soon once again and still have the hopes for a January surgery.

Well, just eight more days and I'll be having my first consultation with Dr. Orris.  I'm at a point right now where I'm hoping and praying that he doesn't say that I have to lose "X" amount of weight or be on a diet plan for "X" amount of months because I'm just wanting to get this journey started so much right now.  I've done all the diets and the string on my yo-yo is so thin right now that it's going to break at any moment.  I can't wait to meet him and get this going.  

I've been having dreams almost nightly about my surgery and they all have been very positive.  When I'm not dreaming about it at night I'm thinking about it during the day.  I told my husband and kids last week that I want a bike for Christmas next year so that we can all go bike riding together.....that's how much I'm looking into the future of my new healthy life.  I see so much good in my future, that I'm anxiously wanting my present to become my past very quickly.  

Last go around I was extremely nervous about lying on my back for the surgery.  At that time I wasn't able to lay on my back without feeling like the wind was being ripped out of me.  Today, I still have a little apprehension about lying on my back for it, but I'd have to say that it's so little that it isn't even on my mind.  Kind of makes me wonder why I'm even bringing it up here....lol.  Maybe I'm just looking to the future once again and when I read about it this time next year I'll wonder why I ever had a worry in me about that.

Well, I'll post again next week after my consultation.  Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!!

I have less than 3 weeks now until my consultation and I'm anxiously awaiting it.  I had thought two years ago that I was ready for this, but compared to now I was sooooooo incredibly nervous about the consult.  I'm going into it this time with confidence.  I can't wait to get this journey started so that I can be on the losers bench soon!!!

Unfortunately I'm going to have to go to my consultation by myself.  My husband was going to be there with me like he was the last time, but his mom is going in for knee surgery the day before.  She is fighting her own surgery, but she has myself, my husband and his dad on her case about going and none of us are allowing her to cancel it.  I told her I'd drug her and drag her in if I had to....lol.  As much as I'd like my husband with me I know that my m-i-l will need him more since my f-i-l is a truck driver and won't be able to be home on that day.  JJ (my husband) had the same knee surgery seven years ago and I know how difficult it was for him to recover from it so I have told him to go ahead and stay home with her because she's going to need him more than I will.  He really wants to go with me, but I feel that it's best that he be with her for literal support.  I'll bring him home good news though....I have strong faith in that.   =)