Shockingly enough I'm happy about turning 33 today.  I never dreamed I would say that...lol.  Why am I so so happy about it you may be wondering?  Well I will tell you.  Twenty days from today I will become a loser!!!!  What better gift could I give myself than the start to a new healthy life.  =)

I had the remainder of my pre-op testing done today and it went very well.  The GI doctor was kind enough to give me a tasty early birthday cocktail.  It consisted of little crystals and a thick liquid that nearly choked me.  Needless to say I'm being a wee bit sarcastic about it being tasty...lol.  It wasn't overly bad and it actually was fairly good at the time because it was about 10:30AM and I had not had anything to drink for the day yet.  I'm still feeling the bloated after effects of it right now, three hours later.  The GI doctor said that things looked good which put me on cloud nine since I'm more than certain that the last time I was to have my surgery that this was the point that it was found out how full my lungs were.  My breathing tests came out well.  I need to up a little bit with a hand held thing I use to suck up air into.  I need to be at 2500 and I'm at just over 2000 right now.  2 1/2 years ago I was only able to get up to 1500 at the very most and that was pushing it.  

I am feeling 90% confident that I will get the all clear from my testing.  I want to have that 10% of uncertain feelings just in case anything was wrong.  I may have to go back to a doctor to pee in a cup again because I didn't go as much as they would have liked, but they said it could have been enough.  They'll let me know in a couple of days if I need to.  

I am sooooooooooo happy to have this all done now!!!  I can finally say that I am on the home stretch to having my surgery done.  What a great day it will be tomorrow knowing that I can celebrate my birthday with the knowledge that every test has been taken and that I have finally started walking on the yellow brick road towards a healthier new life. 

Loserville is coming quickly!  I am even seeing a slight hint of the finish line straight ahead of me.  It's faint, but it's there.  Maybe if I pick up my pace it will be in my view even more by next week....hehehe. 

My m-i-l and my birthdays are only eight days apart so we always celebrate them together on the Sunday between them.  Well, my birthday is in two days so we celebrated them this past Sunday.  My most favorite gift was getting a Magic Bullet from my in-laws!!!!!  When I opened it I started crying like a baby because I was so happy to get one.  No one expected me to react that way....I didn't either LOL....but I was so thrilled to have gotten one because of how much I wanted one.  I had planned on just using a blender, but this will be so much easier for me for portion control after my surgery.  My m-i-l and I had been to a kitchen store a couple of months ago (I could get lost in this store because I like it so much) and I had pointed out the Magic Bullet to her.  Little did I know that she had already bought me one!  I just reaffirmed her purchase of it by how much I raved about it.  

When we got home from their house afterwards JJ asked me why it had gotten to me so much.  BAD question because that just let the water works flow once again....lol.  He and the kids started teasing me about my crying, but I just couldn't stop.  I went to my bedroom so that I could cry in peace and let me tell you.....I was an absolute basket case!  I had done that also the night before so I'm thinking that most of it was just major PMSing on my part.  But anywho, when I came out of the bedroom I told him how much I was wanting one but because they are pricey I never dreamed that I would get one.  He understood at that point and could see why it made me emotional.  

Ughhhhhhhh I hate that I can cry at the drop of a hat sometimes, but that's how I've been all my life so it's something that's not going to change about me.  JJ has always teased me that when I cry my bottom lip quivers like crazy.  It doesn't bother me that he teases me about it because I know it's true....lol.

I had a dream a couple of nights ago that felt like it was going to be one of those deja vu type dreams.  I was standing in my kitchen and leaning against the counter talking to my husband.  While we were talking he went to move past me and I sucked my belly in so tight and couldn't figure out why it wasn't moving....lol.  He looked at me weird and asked what I was doing and I told him that I had to suck in good so that he could get past my big gut.  He then looked me over and said "what gut?"  I looked down at myself and it was then that he reminded me that I had already had my surgery.  At that point in my dream I looked down at myself and noticed that I could see down to my feet (what are those again?????  I haven't seen mine for years) and that I was thin!!!!!!!!

I told him about the dream last night and he said that my mind was obviously telling me that while having the surgery is a physical transformation my mind was telling me that it's also a mental transformation.  Hearing him say that made me realize how much he really does know about my surgery.  He then asked me if I will be attending support groups because while he'll be for me as support he wants me to be able to talk to others who have been through it and will fully understand what I'm going through.  I said that I found some groups in Phoenix and Tucson which are both one hour from me.  I told him that I plan on looking around to see if there are any closer ones because he's right......he may be there for me, but he won't fully comprehend everything that I will be feeling.  It made me so happy to have him tell me all that he did because it just shows me how prepared he is getting for my surgery as well.  =)