I must say things are much better being home than in the hospital. That being said, I am very anxious about tomorrow. My (grown) daughter has arranged her work schedule and is on winter break from school. So, she will be with me. But, it feels very strange to depend on your own child for things like I may need tomorrow. I am so use to my husband always being there for me in all my illness and hard times. But, he's been off since Tues. I can't expect him to keep taking time off. I just think tomorrow until 6pm is going to be the longest day of my life.
I'm also feeling what I've read hundreds of times on this site.I'm trying to remember that in a couple weeks or so this pain and discomfort will be less and less and in a couple months, I will have NO regrets. But right now, I'm scared and hurt alot.

....today I read it with fresh eyes. This is my anthem now. This is what will help give me the courage to go through my surgery Dec. 6 and the rest of the journey. This, my friends and my angel. Thank you all. I hope this can give you some inspiration too.

The Real Woman Creed
By Jan Phillips, CA

I believe that within me lies an extraordinary radiance, and I commit to letting my light loose in the world.

I believe that the source of my power and wisdom is in the center of my being, and I commit to acting from this place of strength.

I believe that I possess an abundance of passion and creative potential, and I commit to the expression of this gift.

I believe that the time has come to let go of old notions and unhealthy attitudes, and I commit to re-examine what I have been told about beauty and dismiss what insults my soul.

I believe that negative thoughts and words compromise my well-being, and I commit to thinking and speaking positively about myself and others.

I believe that young women are in need of positive role models, and I commit to being an example of authenticity and self-love.

I believe in the relationship between my well-being and the well-being of the planet, And I commit to a life of mindfulness that regards all living things as holy and worthy of my love.

I believe it is my spiritual responsibility to care for my body with respect, kindness and compassion. I commit to balancing my life in such a way that my physical being is fully expressed and nurtured.

I believe that joy is an essential part of wellness, and I commit to removing obstacles to joy and creating a life of exuberance.

I believe that a woman who loves herself is a powerful, passionate, attractive force, and I commit, from this day forward, to loving myself deeply and extravagantly.

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