I HATE walking.  It hurts, I can't breathe, and why the heck would I walk if I didn't actually have to to get somewhere?

That used to be my stance on walking.  Today I truly proved to myself that I AM 94.7 pounds lighter, and that it makes a HUGE difference to be 95.7 pounds lighter!  I can walk.  I can walk from  my car to my office without losing my breath, or raising my heart rate.  I can park in ANY available parking spot, and walk past the million available spots that are closer to get inside a store.  I can walk around Capitol park, and it is getting EASIER!    But today was my best walk yet, I had forgotten to take my son's blanket & sheet in to preschool this morning.  Horrible mommy!  Anyway, I walked my butt in to work trying to scheme a way to get my dad to come downtown and deliver it for me, but he was busy, and wouldn't get there before nap time.  UGH!  I knew I needed to walk to day, 2 days w/o walking and I needed to get moving again, so I put on my shoes, my walking shirt, headed to the car to get the bag, and on the way there thought, "No one will know if I just drive over there."    But that little angel on my other shoulder chimed in and said "WALK!"  So I walked.  From 15th & K Street to 10th & I Street!  All tolled...ONE MILE!  Ok.  I am sure there are some of you out there who are saying "Uh, yeah, I do one mile in my sleep."  Well...I am not one of those people...I HATE walking!  When I first started here people kept talking about walking over to City Hall, and I thought they were crazy, who the hell would want to walk to City Hall when we have a little cart that can drive you there?  And it seemed like it was SOOOOOOO far away!  But today, I had enough faith in myself to know that not only could I walk to City Hall, and see my son, but I could also make the trek back! 

Major accomplishment for the I HATE TO WALK girl!

I have been thinking a lot about what goes in my mouth.  Hmm...can't imagine why?  Maybe because I have had surgery, and my stomach is now non-existent, but also because I know I HAVE to have protein.  My first bite at any meal is protein.  I am sipping on my Special K Pink Lemonade protein water right now.  I think I am a good representative of what a wls patient is. 
That being said, I refuse to say "I can never have___ again."  People say all the time "What can you eat?"  Well, I CAN eat anything, the question they should ask is, what do you eat?  I do eat tuna, chili, grilled chicken, cheese, etc.  But most nights I have fat free chocolate pudding with a scoop of fat free cool whip on top.  It is my decadent dessert, and a fine trade for the 4 scoops of ice cream I used to eat.  Today I had THREE bites of wacky cake...THREE!  But that is better than the FOUR pieces I would have had before surgery.  I can't live  my life restricted.  I can't NEVER have sweets again.  But I CAN have them in moderation, and I truly believe this surgery has helped me discover what moderation means! 
For me it means one bite, not twenty, of cake.  Since I had those bites of cake, I didn't have any sherbet, no loss there.  Today for dinner I ordered a bacon ranch salad from McDonald's, I ate the chicken, with the cheese, bacon, and LITTLE dressing.  Before I would have ordered a large two cheese burger combo, and still had ice cream later! 
These choices might not seem like much to the general population, but for me, they are life changing, and every time I make a good choice I surprise myself a little. 
Every morning I tell my 5 year old to make good choices, and that has now become my own mantra, so in the morning when I tell him to make good choices, he says back, "ok Mommy, you too!" 

I have a friend at work, a male, who I am actually able to talk open and honestly to.  Yesterday we were talking and I told him I've lost over 90 pounds since August.  He came into my cube this morning and said "I was thinking about you last night, and I cannot believe you've lost 90 pounds!  That is insane!"  So I showed him some old pictures of me, and he said "That doesn't even look like you!"  And he knew me then too! 
It was a fantastic way to start a Friday!!!