checking in, updates on me

Aug 29, 2011

 I disappear sometimes. I never mean to. I find it hard to fit everything I want into a day. Since I’m not supposed to be online at work for anything other than placing orders, this has seriously cut down on my OH time. I am not avoiding anyone on here, no one has pissed off. When I get home, I want to surround myself in physical comfort/support and as awesome as you guys are, no one gives hugs like my husband and son.

This journey has been interesting so far, many ups and downs and for the most part I’ve taken it in stride. Even though I’ve reached many goals, it never ends. The diabetes monster will always be lurking around the corner, the urge to fall in to lazy behaviors will always be there. Time management will always  be something I wish I could improve. Such is life. Life goes on, and it gets better each day.

I few months ago I revised my weight loss goal from 125 to 129 as I was sure I wasn’t going to lose any more weight. Not sure where I would have to lose it from… but when I got on the scale this morning for my weekly accountability Wii Fit informed me that 125 was a reality and not a pipe dream (125.4 to be precise). I’m still kinda floored by it. Will I maintain it? I doubt it. Will I care if I go back to 127-129? Oh heck no. Even though people piss me off when they tell me to stop losing weight that doesn’t mean that still want to lose more. I don’t. I just hate being told what to do by people who don’t live in my body. I’m happy with my body. Sure I’ve got loose skin, who doesn’t? I don’t care. I look great in clothes, I’m happy naked too, and my husband is very, very pleased with this transformation. Smart man.

We’re exploring more and more foods. In the past we were eating cauliflower crust pizza, but as the time comes closer and closer that I will start absorbing more fat again, we are trying to cut back the fat a bit and find a very balanced diet. Last night we have pizza on multi-grain and flax flat outs. As a pizza, I can eat about a half of one (shared mine with my son) and was full and happy with it. And got in more fiber than I would have in the cauliflower incarnation. Still tweaking the cauli-crust recipe, some times I mix in greek yogurt or cottage cheese so I can cut back on the mozzarella going in the crust, and we’ve been adding flaxseed meal to the mix in hopes of making it a little crunchier. He’s very brave with my experiments and will try everything. He’s honest about what he likes and is less fond of, and we’re got a great variety and rotation going on. Those of you who don’t know me well, I was the world’s pickiest eater prior to surgery. I still don’t eat a lot of things such as onions, beef, pork, deer, scallops, clams, cooked peppers, tomatoes that aren’t pulverized into ketchup or smooth sauce, etc etc, the list could go on all day, but I won’t.

My mom and grandma are flying in on Wednesday. Mom will be evicting her tenant the following day. My little family and I will be moving into that house and out of our 1 bedroom condo. My little brother (28) will be moving home from Albuquerque and renting out the basement and bringing my favorite cat (Shady) and his cat home with him. I’m very excited for this move, it means we will be able to have another baby (not right away but I can start planning and that’s exciting). We’ll be renting out the condo for around the price of the rent of my parents house (so if anyone is looking for a condo in Leesburg, VA let me know) crazy the change in the cost of living from one state to another even though the two residences are only 30 minutes apart. I’m not very excited about winter on the mountain again, but sacrifices will be made :)

My cousin is getting married on the 10^th, I’m taking off the 9^th to help her prepare, and I’m very excited about all this. When we move, we’ll be closer to this cousin and the rest of her family, which is awesome since we’ve been becoming closer emotionally over the past year. I’ll also be closer to my friends (yay!) even though my husband will be further away from most of his.

As for mom herself coming, I’m already bracing myself. I know that even though right now I’m excited about all this fun stuff coming down the pipe, nothing is set in stone and nothing sets me off more than a few days in close proximity to my mother. Hopefully I’ll have enough Wellbutrin in my system to deal with her more calmly and not let her get to me. I see the psychiatrist the day after mom gets here, so we’ll see if she has any suggestions. In the meantime, I am really looking forward to seeing my grandma :) and really wish my dad was coming with them, but he said he’ll come out and visit us when he is permitted to leave the area (his boss is being very possessive at the moment due to his department changing offices). Sigh.

Oh well. I’m out of steam now, so I’m going to go away now. At least for a little while. The nice OH people have approved my before and after photos so they’re up now, check them out, it’s pretty mind blowing.

Take care!!

 

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