Weight has been a life long issue for me.  I remember when it first became a concern for my family.  I was probably 7.  I didn't look like the other kids who were long and lean, I was thick.  It wasn't that I ate junk food (we were one of those houses where junk food wasn't allowed), it was just simple foods, probably a fair amount of carbs.  

I remember how active I was.  I had gymnastics every weekend and I wanted to be the next Nadia Comenici.  But my coach reported to my parents that I needed to lose 25 lbs.  I remember being 11, taken to Lean Line, scared of these adults, many of whom were morbidly and super obese.  I was 5'1 and weighed 111.  Sometimes I think people (family) should have just left well enough alone.

By age 13 I was 180 and swore I wouldn't go over 200.  By age 16 I was 240 and my obese family doctor said nothing.  At the time though, I deicded to "try" bulemia.  I didn't like it much and only did it out of anxiety over the "wrong foods" or an over indulgence.  But believe it or not I was still very active, biking miles and miles every weekend.  By age 18 I was 270.  

My young adult years took me up and down between 290 and 260; Nutrisystem helped me get to the latter number, but I quit when I couldn't keep to it 100% after my dad died unexpectedly.

Nutrisystem was 13 years ago.  I probably fluctuated from 260-340 repeatedly 3 or 4 times.  LA Weight Loss took me from that high to 268, but again, I couldn't keep it up. If I didn't feel like I was overeating on their program and stuffed, then I was starving on the same food, go figure.

Finished LAWL in 2003, right after another traumatic personal episode that centered on the man I wanted to marry cheating on me.

I gave up, sort of, but kept trying, exercise, calorie counting, low carb, you name it.  When I still got no where I tried Jenny Craig and even that had limited success.  

Hmmm, I could have paid for VSG in what I spent combined on all my efforts.

So, here I am, hovering around 310.  

I don't see myself as an overeater.  When I watch shows that show people overeating, I do that rarely.  But I suppose enough.  And I can't seem to not ever do it.  

I'm thinking of the VSG as my back up system to the good efforts I often choose to do.  I have no idea how I will get it done or if I'll have the courage.....