So my husband and I went to a baseball game last night.  We walked down to our seats which was scarey enough.  We were 3rd row from the feild by 1st base line.  The next batter was right smack in front of our face.  No snoozing at this game or my luck I would have a foul ball in my face   We get to our seats and OMG I Fit!!!  I mean I fit before,  but now room on both sides and the arm rests were not digging into me.  Can you say WOW!  I had to bite my lip to not start crying like a baby.  It was amazing.  But then the night went on   It's very easy when your in your own home, or controlled atmosphere.  But when your out at either someone elses home, an event  or a restaurant, everything changes.  Lets see..to the left of me was a monster cheese steak, to the right of me nachos, hot dogs, french fries.  In front of me chicken fingers with fries covered in cheese, Bacon hamburgers etc...you get the point    Needless to say I was in hell!!!!!    I kept telling myself so what, this is better, I feel better and I finally fit in the chair comfortably.  Well by the 5th inning I really didnt want to smell and see all those people stuffing their faces any longer while I sat and ate my protein bar  LOL  Did I mention my husband eating a big sundae?  Can you say D-I-V-O-R-C-E?   Then the guy sitting in front of us went to get up.  He was a very large man.  When he sat down the first time he had a HUGE bucket of fries and a pizza and hotdog   Well when he got up I'm telling you his arse was hanging out of his pants.  Not just a small crack, but the whole enchilada.  That was the biggest moon I have ever seen.  At that moment I was like fine he can eat it hell no not me.  Can't believe that guy didnt feel his pants were not on him at all.  It was quite a moment.  So that was my evening  

So I have been depressed for the last 2 weeks because I didn't feel I was losing as much as I should have, especially having the Bypass instead of the Band.  I went to see my Surgeon today (first visit since my surgery)  as soon as she walked in the room and saw me she said "Wow, you look great!  You look so fit "  I was so happy.  I thought it was only me noticing since no one else has really seen me or said anything.  She said she was suprised I had lost 35 pounds already seeing I wasn't that big to begin with.  She said I should be happy with what I've lost in 4 weeks.  Now I am!    I was thinking I was failing and it should have been coming off faster.  She said with all the working out I was doing and watching closely what I was eating was helping out as well.  I knew that in the back of my mind but you know it's always nicer to hear it from someone else    I'm going home to Jersey tomorow to see my parents and brother for the first time since surgery.  They havent seen me since I was 50 pounds heavier so will see what they think   

Well, its offical...It's the day of my Surgery   It's after midnight now and I can't drink anything anymore.  I took my last guzzle of water and from now on guess I'm just sip sip sippin which is going to be a challenge for me.  Have always been a big water drinker and I would guzzle a bottle down in one breath without thinking.  Iv'e been told only need to do that once and when it comes right back at ya , you learn fast     So what shall I do the rest of the night  Hmmmmm...I work 3rd shift so I can't fall asleep utnil about 8-9 to begin with.  Thats the time I will need to get in the shower and get ready to leave so this should be interesting.  Usually when I'm bored and this hungry I would take my teenage son and we would go to the diner.  Guess those days are over.  What else could I do with the boy  lol  Anyways think I'll go clean some more.  My house is spotless by the way  lol