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I have a little over a month to go until surgery and have been trying tremendously to prepare myself physically, but more so mentally.  After what seemed to be a VERY long winter, I felt like I was falling into a very deep hole (aka depression) due to my weight gain.  I was physically depressed and had a lot of mental work to do as well.  I started weekly therapy to identify these issues and also to address my emotional eating habits.  I feel like I have come a looooong way over the past few months and am very excited to be going into this with such a good head on my shoulders.  I am so proud if myself. (something I couldn't say a few months ago if I tried!)

 

So throughout the past few weeks, I was put into a rather sticky situation.  I feel like it was a real test of truth for me.  I realized that for so long I have wanted control over the things that happen in my life, and for so long I didn't...food being one of those things, too.  I realized that the strong, smart, focused and disciplined person that everyone would say I was, was back.  I realized that I'm going to be okay after this because I am a good person and I am a well balanced individual.  I realized that the vulnerable, low self-esteemed fat girl is already gone.  I'm one step ahead.  Now I actually know what I'm really worth. And even though I hate when I can't get what I want, I realized that it's a good thing- because I will never settle for less than what I want.  And I'll put up a hell of a fight until I get it.

 

I know that all of these traits that I discovered about myself are going to carry over after surgery leading me to success.  So...I'm saying WOW, because I think I deserve it.