Well I finally tried the Boost glucose control shakes, Vanilla flavored, and they weren't horrible so I think I'm set for my pre-surgery liquid diet. They are lactose free as well so that is a blessing.
Yesterday I got a records release signed for the Lake Regional Hosp. and they sent the last piece of the puzzle, my nutrition assessment I had to do for Gestational Diabetes, to Margie. Then Margie faxed everything to my insurance company and now I wait. I have Blue Cross Federal. Margie said they usually don't have any problems with federal employees but its still nerve wracking. I sit here wondering if I should call the insurance company or just wait for Margie to call me. Due to Dr. H's broken arm they are scheduling 8 weeks out right now, so there is really no rush. I am very nervous about my endoscopy but glad I will have it over with. There is confusing information of whether you are aware of what's going on but you don't really care or if you are out and don't have any idea. Guess I'll know on the 10th.
I thought I'd be better at this blogging thing but my main goal with all this is to help someone else who may be going through the process after me wondering who to go to and what happens. I had a hard time finding a Dr. for my Psych. Eval, but I'm happy with the one I found even though its two hours away from me. Also just how long it takes for things to happen and what happens.
I think everyone has days where they are completely for the surgery and then moments when you're eating something you love when you go, I can't do this. I just try to remember that I keep living this way I won't live long. If I do live long then I will eventually lose my feet and other limbs because of diabetes because I can't get my sugar down. I am having a  little of the Last Supper effect but I am not letting it overpower me. I have a list of a few items I want before my surgery.
1. My favorite chocolates, which I've already ate.
2. A filet Mignon, i have never had one.
3. Cheese fries extra cheese and bacon from Lone Star
and there were more but I can't think of them so maybe that's a really good thing. :)
All in all I don't forsee a weight gain because I'm already changing. There was too much mayo on my sandwich the other day and that is usually something I don't think there can be enough of. I am also not as focused on food and have not been snacking as much. I'm really proud of the that 22 lbs. I've lost and hope to lose more before my surgery.
I just found out that a lady that went to the same seminar as me has a surgery date of August 3rd, so hope mine isn't too far behind that.

I can't believe tomorrow is my consultation. As i watched American Idol last night I knew that I was making the right choice. I used to sing and enjoy singing, now I have no breathe and can't manage more than a few bars. All of that will change in time. I'm getting super excited and nervous. I guess my mom and BF are going with me as well as my daughter. She has caught pink eye again, and its really bad this time, so we may be going to her doctor again today. Its so frustrating having her sick all the time. I'm paying for day care and she can't even go.
I just got to watch that new show Glee club online and it looks really good. I don't think its coming out until the fall though. Other than that all my normal shows I watch are now over, and I should use the time to exercise anyway. I have my questions ready for Dr. Hornbostel and today is going by so slowly.
Tomorrow I can mark one of my goals as completed which feels really good.