I am sure some of it is normal nerves, but i am begining to freak out a little. I have finished my chest xray, ekg, stress test, gi swallow, and labs. The results were that my back is wearing a little early (from a car accident), i have a small hiatal hernia, my iron has dropped from where it was (not low, but ferritin is a little down), my vitamin d is really bad, my tsh (thyroid) is just a tad low and doctor said it wasnt of concern to her. Been fighting my migraines again (10 days of bad stuff) and my neurologist said we will increase use of the toradol, and percocet. These thoughts bring me to yet more concern...what if my back or migraines get worse and increase my needs for nsaids (or create one)? The surgeon knows about the toradol 2x/mo but we might be increasing that and i will need to ask him. And if my iron and vitamin d are low now, and those are things i will malabosorb after surgery...i dont want to be making myself sicker with a surgery to make me better??? I dont want to need iron infusions! I will spend more time in the sun, even if it kills me (to increase my vitamin d) but the iron??
I am scared, but then when i think about not having surgery, it makes me sad. when i think about the weight loss, i get happy and i almost think my hubby might even be getting excited about that part. He has said a few things about how i wont be overweight soon.
Ugh, i just feel so torn and conflicted about this all

Well my pre op appointments are quickly coming and stressing me a little, just because its time consuming and this is all becoming real. I had my cardiologist echo, still to do stress test, but heart looks good. I wondered about that one since a lot of migraine pts have whats called PFO and i thought, gee if i have that, they could fix it and rid my migraines so when they said everything looked "Perfect" i hate to say i was a tiny bit bummed (I know, crazy right). I did my radiology stuff today (fasting blood (10 HUGE tubes!), EKG, Spirometry (breath real dang hard into this mouth piece several times), chest xray and GI swallow). the GI swallow was the most memorable...UCK! I totally thought after 14hrs of fasting trying to drink the pop rocks and then the elmers glue, i would just puke all over the place, but i didnt. I did have an awful taste and feeling all day, but has passed now, Was worried that i would throw a migraine because i had just gotten over a 2 day one this morning, but did OK, if anything just a slight head pressure.
I left st francis thinking....WTF am i doing? Am i crazy, this is crazy, i should stop now. then GOD had an idea, I ran into a former co-worker who is definately into natural things, i thought "Great, she will ask why i am here, what will i say...I dont wanna hear her slam this choice" But i told her the truth and my reasons for it and admitted i was having second thoughts. She surprised the heck out of me, when she said she was proud of me for making this decision and thought i sounded like i was on the right track. We laughted because we know how pts get nervous right before a procedure, and i am no different and GOD would see me tnought, that calmed me right down, the LORD IS GREAT!
The second gal even went as far as to say, why not lapband and i told her my reasons (including but not only "all the lapbanders i know still carry too much weight for me to be happy") and she then shot "Al/ l the gastric bypass pts i know, have died early". That one is still bugging me...Is it true or did she just retort out of anger? I have long wondered about your health as you get on in years with rny...???