OK, I had planned to go liquid on Saturday but yeah...i slipped and had dinner. I really dont feel bad about it, i have never eaten at the Melting Pot and i had always wanted. Its sorta pricy and so i dont imagine i will want to go after WLS since you can only eat a tiny bit anyway. I had been shopping all day with my auntie and i had been liquid all day, but refused to pass on this (besides, i kept thinking..."the paperwork says liquids for 10 days). Sunday i did fairly well except i had some nachos, damn my hubby for brining those into the house...they are a favorite of mine. But after eating the nacho...i got so sick, diarrhea, stomach cramps and indigestion.
Yesterday i was so hungry i couldnt stand it, but i did. today seems to be a little bit better. I woke up feeling sick though, just pain everywhere, and nauseated, this is how i feel when i get too hungry...never knew that! Taken my suppliments like a good girl. I had my support group meeting last night (TTNT) and was really glad i did. It was great having everyone be so excited for me, hearing more about foamies etc. have meet some amazing ladies there! I made a new friend and stayed after the meeting for over an hour, she is even giving me her chicken broth flavored protein powder that she cant use anymore (gags her). It was great hearing her whole story! 
My  bestfriend posted an AMAZING picture, even my hubby had to say how good she looked! that is totally motivational.
I totally hate my job, but am begining to feel grateful again, i have amazing insurance that covers so much stuff, so much at 100 percent that others pay a portion of. I am going to try and dedicate myself back to it for a while because after wls i guess i cannot really risk my medical insurance. I will figure the rest out later, maybe when Obama gets national health insurance i can think about leaving, but i really am feeling loved today and valued by my system. they offer low cost health insurance to use and cover like everything. that is showing appreciation to me!
I did get a pretty bad headache last night, i was surprise sort of, but then again fasting (or even sort of fasting) can be a common trigger for them. so i took my medicine and went to bed (it makes me fall asleep anyway). I am hoping to avoid a headache today!!!
Peppermint tea is so my friend, it is warm, tastes good and makes me feel like i am getting a tiny treat (its sweet).
my home made broths are amazing. i had a whole chicken in the crock with carrots, potatoes, celery, cilantro, parsley, onions, garlic and some herbs...i used cheese cloth to separate the broth from the rest and my family ate the whole food while i enjoyed some deeply favored and filling broth. last night i put a pot roast in with the same stuff, should be good!!!
just trying to take it 1 day at a time! i am getting nervous. i wish my friend would call me, she is an ICU nurse and was going to be with me at the hospital but so far, i havent been able to reach her, she is supposed to get back into town tomorrow, but i dont know if she will be able to get May 13th off since that will be only 14 days notice to her work....Here is to praying for it!
I am also blessed my hubby went to church on sunday and i even got blessed (they do it every week ,but i felt like i needed it this week).
WOW...life is sure crazy!

I am also now scheduled for my surgery 5/13/09 which is about 2 weeks from now. boy this is happening so fast now.
Brace yourself Martha (hahah, if you get that joke, you are a perv).
FREAKING OUT!!!
they said to start the clear liquids with protein shakes NOW...omg...i am freaking out!

Ok, more insurance hell going on. I have gotten 3 rejections so far and all for dumb reasons (missing paperwork). Yesterday i faxed them the entire packet of info myself so if they say they are missing something i can honestly argue knowing i sent it all. Hope to get approval sometime next week. Really glad i have been proactive in this, otherwise i would still be waiting for my first rejection letter to come (seriously).
Looking more like June for surgery then May...ugh! Just want to get this over with, dont want to chicken out, ya know. Also, i really want a break from work, i am needing a vacation from the people here and since i have saved all my time off for surgery, i am totally ready! 
Pray please, that i get in soon, i want to enjoy my summer with weight loss!
xoxoxo

I have completed all my preauth work for insurance and submitted to my surgeon. They say it takes 2 weeks to hear back but my friend told me to call my insurance after 4 days and they will actually have processed the info and have a result. I can then have the insurance fax it to me or the doctor directly and bypass that 2 weeks wait.

I faxed my papers to surgeon on Friday (27th) and called surgeon office on Tuesday (31st) to confirm they faxed, they said they faxed on the 30th and will wait to hear back. I then called my insurance yesterday (4/2) and they had a denial letter written dated the 27th (which predates my having all paperwork in. I called surgeon back because i was totally confused. turned out the biller sent only half of my stuff in because she didnt read my paperwork to notice i needed my pcp visits also. Surgeon office is going to fax all stuff in today so i will call my insurance again next week mid week. this doesnt make my surgeons billing lady happy but i am glad i did it, otherwise i still wouldnt know she sent the stuff in wrong and would have to wait 2 weeks to get my denial letter and they do all this to fix it, it saved me 2 weeks already! When she said, i needed to just wait i said "I work in healthcare and I believe i should be my own advocate!" she stopped short.

My husband says i should let this happend naturally but i have made up my mind and now i want it to happen, i want it over with and i will do what ever i can do help myself get there, is that so wrong?