It is 9:30 the night before my surgery.  In twelve hours i will be in the hospital getting ready for my surgery.  I pray that GOD will see me thru this and bring me home to my family.  I think my only real fear right now is not coming home to them.  I feel so blessed to have such a great family, my husband, my daughter, my stepsons, my mom and my stepfather, my motherinlaw, my two sisterinlaws, my neices and my nephews and my brotherinlaws.  I could go on and on but you get my point.  Makes me wonder why I sit and whine so much.  I mean in the overall scheme of things I really really do have a great life.  Please God watch over and take care of me so I can come home to them.
Becca  

Okay, now I am only 3 days away from the EVENT.  I hope that this surgery will really help me change things.  As I look around the forum I seem taht many people seem to gain their weight back.  I am determined that this will NOT happen to me.  Later I may look back at this blog and regret these words, but I have to build some accountability into this for myself.  I have to keep reminding myself that these changes are FOREVER.  I can't ever go back to eating the way I did before.  Exercise is going to have to become a part of my life.  I JUST HAVE TOO!!!!!