ObesityHelp

Well I currently live on Maui. I grew up in Kahuku on Oahu then moved back and forth between California and Hawaii after my parents got divorced. Anyhow I've been married to my Robert for 5 years now and I know it will be another 50!!! I cannot wait to have WLS I absoulutely cannot wait I am so excited I have been big all my life. Well in 6th grade I wore a size 7 pants and had a D chest so I think that was my best!! hehe!! I am ready to run around in a bathing suit!! If it kills me damnit!!! I am willing to take any suggestions, comments , or anything you have to tell me about the surgery!! I am almost done with all my appt. and classes, I have 1 nutrition class, 2 webstiles, and 1 more visit with my BMC. And thats it!!! Oh and 1 more blood work to make sure my Folic Acid levels are higher. Thats all!! I am gonna go crazy waiting!! just kidding it's worth the wait, I would rather do all this than go in blind, Kaiser is wonderful!!!!!!!!!!



Ok I am being presented on June 1st and I am so excited, except... now I am being told that kaiser is offering the lap-band. I am torn between the two. Obviously the lap band sonds better they are not cutting your stomach ect....but does it have the same results???? Please somebody help me. I am going to e-mail Dr. Gilbert and get her opinion. I am now down to 259 which I am ecstaic about it's been a long time since I seen that number!! I have lost 21 pounds since this time last year, 19 pounds from my "usual" weight and 14.5 since orientation!!!!!!!! I cannot believe it. Anyways any advice i am allllll ears!!!


Just waitinggggggggggggggggg

6/13/06
Well I am still just waiting my behavirist went on vacation so they didn't get her approval yet . GRRR oh well I started a new job so I guess it's for the best. I am starting to have doubts though, which sucks!! I keep thinkning I should be strong enough to conquer this on my own, but obviosly that hasn't worked before! I don't know what I should do. Need some encouraging words please someone. My husband says it's my decision and he can't help me, though he spports me in any decision I choose. I so desperately want to be thinner and have children. I think all this waiting is making me think to much. I am going to start walking to work everyday. We will see how that goes!! I am, watching what I eat and everything no more sugar ect.. but the weight has stopped comig off. I am struggling with my not smoking so BAD!!!!!!!! I have alot of issues I suppose but I need to reslove them one by one. have PCOS and HATE it, the skin tags, hair, infertility not to mention it makes it virtually impossible to lose weight. So if anyone has any advice to offer I'm all ears and I need it so badly!!!!!


6/16/06
I cannot believe it I finally got approved!!!! The doctors accepted me!!!!! I have really worked hard to change my lifestyle and am so excited. I started having doubts but the more I weigh the pros and cons the only thing in my life i am TRULY unhappy with is my weight.
1.I want to go surfing
2.snowboarding
3.I want to be able to share a kayak with my husband without fear of sinking lmao
4.Sexy clothes
5. I want to dance and feel sexy
6.umm have I mentioned sex yet~hehe if it's good now it's gottta be GREAT after
7.Small clothes
8.cute shoes
9.fit in an airplane seat in COMFORT
10. And a booth
11.Have men hit on me then show them my big Robert lol
12.Have a baby
13. Live longer
14.Hopefully cure depression
15. PCOS yuck go away
16.Acheive everything I want and not be scared
17.Lose the paranoia that everyone thinks I am a huge cow
18. and so on and so on!!!

8~07~06
Well here we go I leave in the morning for Oahu. My husband and I are going to go enjoy ourselves for the day on the North shore and relax. Then Wed I have to be at the hospital at 1:30 for surgery at 3:00pm it was 11 am but thats alright. I am HUNGRY on this clear liquid diet but I suppose I will live. At this point I am reassuring myself on why exactly I am going to have them cut my stomach open. But I know why I am just hungry shutup shannon lmao!! Anyhow I will be at Moanalua Medical Center in Honolulu if you want to call me. 808-432-0000. Shannon Jarboe is the name lol!! Bye for now Ill chat at ya when I get home. OMG i cant believe its finally here!!WOOOOOOHOOOOOOO

9-9-06
Not to scare anyone getting ready to have surgery but you need to remember there are risks and they can happen to ANYONE!! I went in for surgery on August 9. I ended up with a kink in my intestine then a leak which they had a hard time seeing because of scar tissue. So they went back in and cut it again and fixed it August 11th. Then There is a ligament they move I guess it used to be your umbilicle cord that usually doesnt bleed, well mine did. So I went in for surgery again August 13th, so they could clean out my body I had a liter and a half of blood in my chest it took 7 hours. Then they decided to keep me sedated with a breathing tube for 12 days. Then I got Pneumonia and my lungs collapsed. I was in ICU at Moanalua from August 9 until August 28 then I got to go to a normal room until Sept 1st when they let me come home I lost 20 pounds in the hospital and have lost 14 since last friday. It is alot!!! Then I had to cut all my hair off(it was down to my butt) because of a huge dreadlock in the back LOL. I have very thick curly hair and it's real easy to Matt right up. Anyway Thats the update for my OH help friends!! And for all of you geting ready for surgery it can happen to anyone I'm 28 and weighed 258 pounds when I went in. THE DOCTORS ARE AWESOME!!! They definately know what they are doing and are very proffesional. My Dr was on vacation and still came in every day to check on me!

 11/15/06

Well I have been home for 2 months now and I finally return to work on Sunday.  I can only pray I am strong enough now to make it through my shifts. we will see.  The Doctor didn't want to give me my release but I told her I cannot stay home anymore or I am gonna go nuts, not to mention I am SOOOOOOOOO  broke its not even funny.  But since I have been home lets see~~~~  I had to chop all my hair off as you can see because it wasn't taken care of and I had a huge dreadlock in the back of my head.  My hair was down to my ass and I was really bummed.  Then I couldn't barely sleep I got addicted to the crazy liquid Oxycodone they gave me.  First of all tey told me to take it every 3 hours regardless of if I hurt because it works better if you take it that way. Then I was never told that you had to wean off of it so I just stopped taking it when I ran out and OH MY FUCKING GOD it was awful.  I went thru withdraw like a heroin addict I had the restless leg syndromme for 3 days straight, felt like I had been in a fist fight with the stomach flu then ran over by a truck. Couldnt eat or sleep prettty much a sick awful experience.  I ended up taking Methadone I got from an unknown souce LOL and immediately was better. That lasted about 6-7 days.  Even though I had asked my Dr what I could take to ease some of the pain she said there wasnt anything and represcribed me the pain meds again. JEEEZZ.  I have lost about 60 pounds in 2 and a half months, about 80 for the year I love the way I am starting to look but I feel like crap all of the time.  I am having major back problems there is this wierd mark the shape and almost size of a boomerang on my back and ther is some kind of fluid in it, my shoulder is numb as well as my thigh and my DR just says I was in bed along time and that is what its from~~ BULLSHIT.  I have been home for 2 months and even when I was in the hospital I was on one of the wierd air beds that move so I wouldnt get any bedsores.  So my surgeon said it is not from being in bed and I am being referred to a surgeon to look at my back as well as a physiatrist for the numbness.  This surgery has caused ALOT of problems for me. I already have BAD scoliosis that w thought would get better with the weight loss and we are now figuring out that the weight was actually cushioning my spine and I am in worse pain than I ever have been in.  So I take Oxycdone daily, and it sucks but whatever.  The eating is not bad I got lucky and not alot of foods make me sick I can pretty much eat anything just not very much like a baby portion LOL.  But I am not hungry so it works.  I am just so FUCKING sick of going to the DR and I got lucky I have GOOD health insurance saying my hospital  bill was $$181,000 that is alot of fucking money its 4,000 dollars a day to be in Crital care and thats just for the room.  Then my 1 surgery turned to three didn't help.  My portion was a whomping $800.00 and that was for blood transfusions.  Anyhoo I guess its time to stop bitching and be happy about geting sexy hehe. 

11/15/06

Well work is not bad I actually prefer going to work I am finally gettting strong again. I feel so much better  now! Its so wierd how different I look.  I catch myself in a window or something and don't even recognize its me sometimes.  Double take!!  Thank goodness a friend who also had the surgry had given me so many CUTE girly clothes.  I have never worn pink until now lol.  Well off to work I go!!