Karly Green
I'm still learning
May 31, 2011
Here we are, winding down from a LONG Holiday weekend. It was nice, relaxing, and Mother Nature blessed us with absolutely Perfect weather.
There was some BBQing, some cookie baking (chewy oatmeal raisin is my favorite right now), but most of all *she says shamefully* there was snacking - Lots and lots of snacking.
I admit I'm still learning how to control my urges and cravings to snack. For instance, I had today off work (my work is very kind and gave us Monday and Tuesday off). So, I sat at home alone, and instead of going for a walk, or packing up my apartment for our move in 2 weeks (I did a little) .... I sat, the majority of the beautiful day, on the couch watching TV and stuffing my physically 138 pound but mentally still 272 pound body with cookies, crackers, and a few high protein things here and there. But mostly cookies.
Bleh. I feel fine physically. Pouchie is a friggin steel trap trooper. She didn't squawk at anything I ate all weekend. Which is good, but bad at the same time.
I trrrrrry and be good. Maybe I'm just beating myself up over dumb sh*t? I mean, everyone has a couple cookies from time to time right? And I still ate as a lot of protein, got my water in, and took my vitamins. So, why do I feel so darn guilty???
Anyways.... Like I said, I'm still learning what to do with myself when I find myself alone and with chewy home baked morsel treats in arms reach. Luckily, it doesn't happen very often.
Hope you all had a great Memorial day!
Cheers!
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There was some BBQing, some cookie baking (chewy oatmeal raisin is my favorite right now), but most of all *she says shamefully* there was snacking - Lots and lots of snacking.
I admit I'm still learning how to control my urges and cravings to snack. For instance, I had today off work (my work is very kind and gave us Monday and Tuesday off). So, I sat at home alone, and instead of going for a walk, or packing up my apartment for our move in 2 weeks (I did a little) .... I sat, the majority of the beautiful day, on the couch watching TV and stuffing my physically 138 pound but mentally still 272 pound body with cookies, crackers, and a few high protein things here and there. But mostly cookies.
Bleh. I feel fine physically. Pouchie is a friggin steel trap trooper. She didn't squawk at anything I ate all weekend. Which is good, but bad at the same time.
I trrrrrry and be good. Maybe I'm just beating myself up over dumb sh*t? I mean, everyone has a couple cookies from time to time right? And I still ate as a lot of protein, got my water in, and took my vitamins. So, why do I feel so darn guilty???
Anyways.... Like I said, I'm still learning what to do with myself when I find myself alone and with chewy home baked morsel treats in arms reach. Luckily, it doesn't happen very often.
Hope you all had a great Memorial day!
Cheers!
9.5 months out and I think she's broken!!!
May 18, 2011
I'm still about about 139-140 lbs. Holding steady which is fine. I'm still wearing about a size 4 in misses or a 7 in jrs although I currently despise everything in my closet (how is that possible!!???) I want to go shopping for new stuff but am FLAT BROKE for a while, so I'll have to make due with what I have for the next few months ... (and try and pay off some of my credit cards lol).
WLS wise things are good! I took a 3 week hiatus from exercising regularly because I got super busy, and honestly, rather lazy for a spell. I still did Pilates, and yoga, and did a bunch of walking, etc. But I didn't have a routine and I've been eating HORRIBLE (more on that in a moment). But it was one thing after another that kept me busy, and eating pretty bad for a while.
Mikes 34th birthday, A weekend trip to NYC, A last minute trip to Florida, We've been "celebrating" a lot lately .... Now, don't get me wrong, I always TRY and do my best even when I'm being "bad" ... But we all know how the guilt creeps in when you know you shouldn't have had that piece of chocolate, or that handful of potato chips. Plus, I pretty much stopped my strength training for 3 weeks so I was feeling like a flabby mess. I'm SO GLAD to be back at it!
Now, onto the part where I think I broke my pouch. Before WLS I used to read on the forums people saying just that, "I eat too much, is my pouch stretched?" or "What am I doing wrong? Why can I eat so much" Etc etc. I used to always tell myself that would never be me. Right?! "I'll be so careful about what I eat and how much I eat" ... Blah blah blah.... Then real life happens and you get so used to your pouch, and the restriction lessens, and you start to eat more, and dump less (although I've never been a dumper), and before you know it .................. You think your pouch is broken!
Granted, I know she's not. But Jesus H. Christ .... I can eat A LOT now! I mean, I have no troubles throwing back a decent sized meal. It worries me.
Recently I haven't been eating as well as I should (as before mentioned). I mean, I still eat heavy protein dense things like Greek yogurt, beef jerky (my new favorite thing in the whole world), reduced fat cheese, turkey pepperoni, grilled chicken breasts, turkey chili, soynuts, milk, eggs, etc....
But!!!! I've also gone so far as to eat a whole whopper jr (bun and all) from burger king w/ fries, potato chips by the handful, donut holes, full caffeinated coffee, macaroni or potato salad, diet sodas, pasta, bread, milkshakes (only a few sips) and the list goes on and on.
My face is breaking out like a 14 year old girls which I know it has to do with all that crap I put in in my body the past few weeks.
I am glad to report that I have new found vigor to get back to my healthy ways. Because let ... me ... tell ... you ... I felt horrible when I was eating bad! Lazy, lethargic, crabby, pimply, stinky, just plain ol' nasty! It's AMAZING how you totally, totally start to feel it when you put crap into your body! I think I actually started to crave good food. I wanted my routine back. My healthy dinners and snacks. My 6 days a week exercise regimen. I missed it. And I'm glad to report we have started back at it. So, Yays!!
Speaking of exercise. We went back to day 1 (for the 3rd time now, LOL) of Power 90. After taking 3 weeks off it didn't feel right to pick up where we left off. So we're back at "Go". And! I got dumbbells now instead of resistance bands which makes it SO MUCH HARDER!!!!
Because with the dumbbells you have to use your muscles to bring the weights up, but also use your muscles to bring the weights down. Which isn't the case with resistance bands. So, my biceps and even my pecks are super sore! But I love it! It's a good sore, means I'm workin' it!
On a totally random note:
The weather in NY suuuuuuuucks! It's the middle of May, and yesterday I had on my Ugg boots, scarf, and a hoodie when I had to run to Target for something. And as I type this sitting at my desk at work I have my space heater on.
It's cold, wet (the rain hasn't stopped all week), sloppy, and dreary. I really do hate complaining about it, cause there's NOTHING we can do to change the weather. But I really just want warmth and sunshine! PLEASEEEEE! Just give us some warmth and sunshine!
Ok y'all. Thanks for listening to me ramble on and on about the same stuff I always do. I'll end with a bright note.
I feel fabulous! My RNY may have changed my insides on the literal level .... But I'm still me in every shape, way, and form. Just skinnier and healthier. I absolutely love my RNY and think it is probably the best decision I've ever made for myself. I am extremely lucky to have my boyfriend Mike in my life. He is SO good to me. I call him my "personal trainer" because he pushes me, and motivates me, and inspires me every single day without fail. Even if I don't want him to! LOL He is my rock without a doubt. And once the weather allows you'll see pictures flowing in of us living life together! Hiking, kayaking, perhaps even camping (she shutters in fear of creepy crawlys).
Oh, and lastly.... On a different & personal note:
To anyone who reads this ... Please, remember to recycle. We only have one Earth. Don't just throw your water bottles in the garbage to collect in our oceans and landfills.
Please don't use Styrofoam cups. Go for the wash & reuse kind! You'll feel better, I promise!
I've recently started using BPA free cups for work, home, and on the go and I feel so much better about it.
If anyone is interested in watching a Documentary that will enlighten you on tap water vs. bottled water, how the bottles are made that we drink bottled water out of, and where the bottled water comes from watch this. It's SO eye opening. You won't look at bottled water the same, I promise.
Much love OH fam!
-Kar
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WLS wise things are good! I took a 3 week hiatus from exercising regularly because I got super busy, and honestly, rather lazy for a spell. I still did Pilates, and yoga, and did a bunch of walking, etc. But I didn't have a routine and I've been eating HORRIBLE (more on that in a moment). But it was one thing after another that kept me busy, and eating pretty bad for a while.
Mikes 34th birthday, A weekend trip to NYC, A last minute trip to Florida, We've been "celebrating" a lot lately .... Now, don't get me wrong, I always TRY and do my best even when I'm being "bad" ... But we all know how the guilt creeps in when you know you shouldn't have had that piece of chocolate, or that handful of potato chips. Plus, I pretty much stopped my strength training for 3 weeks so I was feeling like a flabby mess. I'm SO GLAD to be back at it!
Now, onto the part where I think I broke my pouch. Before WLS I used to read on the forums people saying just that, "I eat too much, is my pouch stretched?" or "What am I doing wrong? Why can I eat so much" Etc etc. I used to always tell myself that would never be me. Right?! "I'll be so careful about what I eat and how much I eat" ... Blah blah blah.... Then real life happens and you get so used to your pouch, and the restriction lessens, and you start to eat more, and dump less (although I've never been a dumper), and before you know it .................. You think your pouch is broken!
Granted, I know she's not. But Jesus H. Christ .... I can eat A LOT now! I mean, I have no troubles throwing back a decent sized meal. It worries me.
Recently I haven't been eating as well as I should (as before mentioned). I mean, I still eat heavy protein dense things like Greek yogurt, beef jerky (my new favorite thing in the whole world), reduced fat cheese, turkey pepperoni, grilled chicken breasts, turkey chili, soynuts, milk, eggs, etc....
But!!!! I've also gone so far as to eat a whole whopper jr (bun and all) from burger king w/ fries, potato chips by the handful, donut holes, full caffeinated coffee, macaroni or potato salad, diet sodas, pasta, bread, milkshakes (only a few sips) and the list goes on and on.
My face is breaking out like a 14 year old girls which I know it has to do with all that crap I put in in my body the past few weeks.
I am glad to report that I have new found vigor to get back to my healthy ways. Because let ... me ... tell ... you ... I felt horrible when I was eating bad! Lazy, lethargic, crabby, pimply, stinky, just plain ol' nasty! It's AMAZING how you totally, totally start to feel it when you put crap into your body! I think I actually started to crave good food. I wanted my routine back. My healthy dinners and snacks. My 6 days a week exercise regimen. I missed it. And I'm glad to report we have started back at it. So, Yays!!
Speaking of exercise. We went back to day 1 (for the 3rd time now, LOL) of Power 90. After taking 3 weeks off it didn't feel right to pick up where we left off. So we're back at "Go". And! I got dumbbells now instead of resistance bands which makes it SO MUCH HARDER!!!!
Because with the dumbbells you have to use your muscles to bring the weights up, but also use your muscles to bring the weights down. Which isn't the case with resistance bands. So, my biceps and even my pecks are super sore! But I love it! It's a good sore, means I'm workin' it!
On a totally random note:
The weather in NY suuuuuuuucks! It's the middle of May, and yesterday I had on my Ugg boots, scarf, and a hoodie when I had to run to Target for something. And as I type this sitting at my desk at work I have my space heater on.
It's cold, wet (the rain hasn't stopped all week), sloppy, and dreary. I really do hate complaining about it, cause there's NOTHING we can do to change the weather. But I really just want warmth and sunshine! PLEASEEEEE! Just give us some warmth and sunshine!
Ok y'all. Thanks for listening to me ramble on and on about the same stuff I always do. I'll end with a bright note.
I feel fabulous! My RNY may have changed my insides on the literal level .... But I'm still me in every shape, way, and form. Just skinnier and healthier. I absolutely love my RNY and think it is probably the best decision I've ever made for myself. I am extremely lucky to have my boyfriend Mike in my life. He is SO good to me. I call him my "personal trainer" because he pushes me, and motivates me, and inspires me every single day without fail. Even if I don't want him to! LOL He is my rock without a doubt. And once the weather allows you'll see pictures flowing in of us living life together! Hiking, kayaking, perhaps even camping (she shutters in fear of creepy crawlys).
Oh, and lastly.... On a different & personal note:
To anyone who reads this ... Please, remember to recycle. We only have one Earth. Don't just throw your water bottles in the garbage to collect in our oceans and landfills.
Please don't use Styrofoam cups. Go for the wash & reuse kind! You'll feel better, I promise!
I've recently started using BPA free cups for work, home, and on the go and I feel so much better about it.
If anyone is interested in watching a Documentary that will enlighten you on tap water vs. bottled water, how the bottles are made that we drink bottled water out of, and where the bottled water comes from watch this. It's SO eye opening. You won't look at bottled water the same, I promise.
Much love OH fam!
-Kar
About Me
Middletown, NJ
Location
21.8
BMI
Surgery
08/02/2010
Surgery Date
Aug 10, 2009
Member Since
Before & After
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272lbs
130lbs
