I am sitting here having chest pain from one to many bites of a scrambled egg.  Learning  the cue for "whoa there the pouch is full" has been a interesting learning experience.  I used to think chest pain meant a cardiac problem, now its just a sign for oops, you went a little far.   I am doing better with it.  I have only had 2 episodes of vomiting, which were quick and painless, because I ate to fast.   Over all I am pleased with my progress.  I am down 16 lbs since surgery and clothes are much looser than before.  I am surprised at how tight my clothes were!  I guess I was just used to it and never noticed.   I feel a bit more "normal" now that I can start eating moist foods.  I have had a really hard time with the protein drinks.  I loved them before surgery, but after surgery, wow, they just taste awful.  I am trying to be a bit of unflavored whey protein, in just about everything I eat.  The smell and the fake tastes are just very off putting.   I did walk this morning.  I know that exercise is going to be an essential part of losing this weight.  I was really enjoying walking before surgery, today it was a bit of a chore.  It was really humid out today, maybe that was part of the problem.  I am going to keep plugging away though, because it not only helps with weight loss, it really helps clear my head and just generally makes me feel better!   Water continues to be difficult.  I was easily getting 64-80 oz of water presurgery, and now I am struggling to get in 30-40 oz of water. Again, going to just keep plugging along!

 18 days to go before surgery......and I am ready for this new chapter in my life to begin!!!  I have changed my way to eating and have been exercising regularly.  I am walking about 2.5 miles about 3 times a week.   I have lost a total of 30 pounds and for the first time in a long time I feel good.  My husband and I were walking to a local bar downtown and I mentioned how great I felt being lighter.  I told him when I lost the next 30-50 lbs he was going to have to tie a string to me, because I just might blow away.  :-}   Its funny how when I gained weight in the past 289 was horrific, but now I am down to 289 I feel great.  Weird huh?   I am so excited that this time in August I could be down 20-30 lbs.    Wow, for the first time I can really imagine it happening.  
  We have a trip to Vegas the week before my surgery, and while I plan to have a really good time, I still plan on working out.  I really want to keep this exercising habit up, until it is a just part of me.   While I never want to wish my days away, I am ready for the 30th to be here!!! 

 So, this time 30 days from now I will be out of surgery and on with the rest of my life!    I am officially scheduled for June 30th.  I haven't had any soda or beer for the past 3 months and I have been walking almost daily.  I am still struggling with remembering to take daily vitamins.  I really want to get that down pat before I have surgery  I have such a hard time remembering to take pills!.  
I managed to walk about 2.5 miles this morning and I really enjoyed myself.   I am so looking forward to working out getting a little easier.  I think my knee pain is going to be gone with out a 50 pounds gone.   
I cant imagine being 50 pounds lighter.  I have already lost 30 pounds on my own and I feel better than I have in a long time.  I am still having issues with fatigue.  I still just get so tired.   I am still 289lbs and I am sure that takes its toll as well.  Beats 320, that for sure!!!!    I have to keep reminding myself how far I have come on my own and help is on the way!

 I had an email waiting on my when I got to work today that said I was approved for my surgery!  I have to get the "official" letter of approval, but it is done, FINALLY!   I should have the offical approval by the end of the week.  I can set up my surgery date with no further issues.
I actually felt pretty good today, inspite of the fact that I did not get much sleep.  I was awake from about 340-500 and I get up at 545 to walk.  I still made my walk and am pretty proud of my self!  I feel so much better during the day time.  Still pretty wiped out at night, but I believe that will improve.  I am so so so so so excited about all of this.  For the first time in a long time I have hope!

 I have been working out every day for the past week.  I am not a morning person, but I have been getting up at 5:45 to walk every morning.   I am only walking 2 miles and it takes me about 45 minutes.   I am so tired by 8:30 I can hardly keep my eyes open.  I am sure this is normal, but it is a bit frustrating.  I feel good during the day, but just kinda collapse when I get home.  I hope as I continue to loose weight I get so more energy.  Funny how I get so down when I am tired.