lose 100 pounds

Hi Everyone! 

Please forgive my delay.  I definitely should have updated within the past 6 weeks.  I had my second post-op appointment on May 1 and I was basically pleased.  I still have times when I don't know what to drink, but that is getting alot better.  I am starting to eat more and I actually find myself enjoying some of my food.  The only thing is that sometimes the taste is so good I just want to gobble it down, but I have to remember that if I do that I will be really sick.

I am also in ONEDERLAND!!!  At Dr. Lautz's office I weighed in at 196.0 (with my boots and a sweater on).  At home I'm closer to 190 (of course I just have on my night gown). 

I don't know if anyone can relate to this, but I often have dreams about food.  I dream that I'm somewhere and there is an incredible spread.  Then, I start to eat things and after I've taken a few bites I panic because I just ate something that was too sugary or was something that might get stuck and I start to panic.  I don't like these weird dreams, but I'm not having them as often.

I am stuck between a size 16 and 18 or I can wear a 14 W.  This is pretty awesome because it has been well over 10 years since I have been able to wear any of those sizes.

I haven't been exercising  officially, but I'm definitely feeling ready.  In fact, this is the first time in my life where I actually felt like I wanted to exercise.  I love it!

Well, this is all for now... Hollar' at you later!

Hi Everyone!
So, I am two weeks out and its okay.  Some of the time I feel awesome and at other times I'm queasy and I'm having a very hard time getting in enough water.  Today I forced myself to drink all of a protein shake.  I finally read that I should be taking a sip every two minutes.  So, I have been doing that for a couple of days and I think it works.  The only problem is that my new tummy doesn't seem to like water, or any thing else that isn't at least a little thick.  I don't know where that came from, but as much as I want water I it makes me queasy.  However, jello, milk, baby food, etc. is fine.  I'm trying not to get too worried, but I am thirsty and I don't seem to be able to get it fixed.  Please pray for me.

Today I came home from the hospital  and I'm glad to be home.  The entire experience can seem so unique to each individual that I wasn't exactly sure what to expect.  My husband had a great experience in August, but I didn't know if I would be like him or not.  So far, everything has been great.  I was a little freaked out pre-surgery about the NG tube and catheter, but afterwards (and as long as I didn't look at myself) I didn't mind it so much.  It doesn't really hurt, its just in the way.  I felt more like I had been run over by a train yesterday, as I started to walk around more. Since then I've been feeling alot better.  Bruce (my husband) has continued to say that each day in recovery is significantly easier than the day before.    Today I'm sore and I feel like I have gas all over my body, but I feel alot better than yesterday. 

SoulSista came by and encouraged me.  It was so nice seeing her!  I wonder what types of crazy stories I told her when she came by.  I remember feeling very alert and chatty and very high on the good stuff.

As Dr. Lautz was doing my surgery he found a hiatal hernia - a big one.  So, that was repaired while he was doing my surgery. Its awesome because I have been eating rolaids and other antacids as follow-ups to my meals for a few years now.  Hopefully, those days are long behind me.  When I found out about this it reminded me of one of my close relatives that is constantly battling her weight and hernias and blood clots.  She was one of the main reasons that I decided to get the surgery.  I'm afraid of that being my life.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers for a continued positive recovery experience.

Hi!  I've only got a few more hours until I go to the hosptial.  When I first received my date it was for 2:30 pm, but I called to confirm today and I was moved to 11:00 am.  I'm actually happy about it.  This means less time for me to freak out in the morning.   

I've packed my bag and I'm ready to go.  I'm nervous and scared, but not as much as I thought I would be.  I am most concerned about being queasy when I wake up. I don't know why because my stomach is rather sensitive and I'm queasy often.  So, this shouldn't be a big deal.  I"m glad that my husband will be with me and some of my friends are coming by.  My wonderful friend/co-worker Emma gave me a teddy bear to take with me to the hospital (like I'm 8 years old ).  I absolutely love him!  He came with the name Hickory, but I think he needs a new name.  I just can't decide what to name him.  I'm open to suggestions.

Well, I need to get a little sleep, so I'll update you in a few days from the losers bench!

Hey Everybody!

I am now just a little over one week away.  I'm excited, nervous, happy, terrified, and a some other emotions in between.  I'm so grateful to everyone that has sent me messages and told me about their experiences.  Thank you so much!!!

I'm doing the pre-surgery diet now.  The first few days were kind of tough, but its getting better. It wasn't that I felt hungry, I felt queasy almost 3 days straight. On the upside, I've already lost like 6 or 7 lbs, so I'm excited about that and it makes continuing a whole lot easier.  Also, I discovered single serving frozen salmon at the grocery store a couple of days ago and I'm in heaven!! It is my absolute favorite, so its nice to have that to look forward to when I get home.

The other challenge right now is that I'm on antibiotics for H.pylori.  I can have some weird reactions to antibiotics, but so far it hasn't been so bad. 

I'll update more over the next few days...