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I've officially lost=a 5-gallon bottle of water or an average human leg. 

40.6 lbs!

 I'm about the happiest I've been in a loooong time. I was really starting to think that I had made a mistake having this surgery. I hadn't lost any wieght in over 3 weeks, and I was starting to second guess myself, but now I'm right back where I belong... on the loser bench! 

Words cannot express how relieved I am. I thought sure that I'd get to a fill point of 4 cc's (even though dr tom doesn't have a single paitent at 4 cc's) and still not have any restriction, but low and behold, I'm at 2.4 cc's and I have pretty darn good restriction. This morning I swallowed two tylenol gelcaps, and I felt full!! LOL. I'm sick... all dripy and congetsted, so I need medicine, but this stupid OTC shit doesn't work. I need the good stuff from behind the pharmacy, but sadly they were closed... but I digress....

Anyway, I'm still having a hard time getting my liquids in, but I think that will be a problem for me 4ever. And one thing I haven't figured out yet... I have some meds that I take that are supposed to be taken on a full stomach, but you're not supposed to drink for a 1/2 hour after you eat, so how the heck am I supposed to take my meds? Not really THAT big of a problem, but I've noticed if I wait the 1/2 hour and then take them, they still give me a tummyache, and if I take them, i get kind sick from drinking on a full stomach... BUT, small price to pay, I guess.... maybe I can take them when i'm half through with my meal... good idea, kell.

Also, a new problem has surfaced... back on the dating scene... And now I have a conumdrum... Do I tell right away about the surgery, or wait till we know each other a little better? I'm not sure. I don't want it to seem like I'm spilling my guts and telling my whole life story, and I DO NOT want to make it seem like I had WLS because I'm unhappy with myself and I don't have confidence... That is NOT why I did it. Of course, I want to look better, but HEALTH is my main goal... To be a healthy mom for my son, and I dont want some guy to think it's all about being skinny... But how do I convey that without going into all that? I worry too much. I think I'll just lay it out. I have always been the kinda girl that doesn't care what people think (to some extent) so why should this be any different... Maybe because I'm getting older, and sometimes lonely? I just wanna be happy... alone, or with someone, what ever it may be...

I'm working on it.

So I'm down another 3.2 lbs! wow! A 110 lbs to go till my goal weight! WOW! That still sounds like a lot, but I'm making progress... The liquids will do it every time... I've officially lost 37 lbs now! I'm sooooooooooooo happy, i can't stand it... Now if everything else in my life would just fall into place, that would be just great. 

I know, though, that I am very wishy washy... Last week, I was worried that I made a mistake doing the band, and that I should have done the RYN. That's just the nature of this stuff though. I'm going through the same thing with my lexapro. Some days, I really feel like it's working great, but other days, I wonder why i even bother. I am taking 3 different medicines now. I wasn't taking ANYTHING before my surgery, so it feels weird to START meds when I'm getting healthier. But, in defense of the meds, One is for depression, one is Birth control... and one is for an iron defeciency that I had BEFORE I had the surgery, but I never took my meds. SOOOO, it's not really fair to say that.  

I've noticed that when I get upset or stressed, like I am right now... I get sick a lot easier when I eat. I've been tryin for weeks to eat a turkey wrap from the cafe at the mall, but every time I get it, it makes me sick. I guess I just can't eat that. It makes me sad because it's the only decent thing at all the fast food resturants.

I have lost weight for the first time since October 20th!!! I'm soooo happy, you have nooo idea. I got another fill yesterday, so I'm at 2.5 cc's now. Just a little over half full. I think this one might actually do it. I haven't felt immediate restriction with any of the previous fills , but I can already tell a difference with this one. I hope it's not just that my tummy is swollen from the fill. I hope it's the actual fill this time! Yesteday, I had a banana/peanut butter milk shake-(homemade)  1/2 of a 12 oz smoothie, and some french onion soup (broth only- since i am on liquids again for the next 3 days.) I felt great!! i didn't get sick at all, no headaches, not really any hunger at all. I couldn't even finish all of the banana shake. 

So this morning so far, I'm working on finishing an 8 oz chocolate protein shake. I've been workin on it for about 30 mins now, and i'm feeling pretty full. 

A big problem for me (always has been and always will be) is getting my fluids in... I have never been a big drinker... I don't hardly ever drink at work, and that's where I spend most of my time. I haven't been drinking pop, or really anything except water (with the exception of Diet Green Tea--I love it for the caffeine!) So I'm not drinking high cal stuff or anything like that, but I know the more water i drink, the better I'll feel, and also, the more weight I'll lose since I'll feel full more often... I hopefully won't be thinking about food so much. 

The weight loss has really got to kick into gear now, because my cousin just got ENGAGED!!! I'm soooo happy for her, and whether I'm in the wedding or not, I still wanna be alot skinnier than I am now for the pictures.

Good luck to me!

uggg! I'm sooo mad at my band right now! I barely have any restriction at all!!! I can eat anything i want! And I am! I'm soo mad at myself.

I have not lost ANY weight in like3 weeks! And I'm really tired of people asking me how much weight I've lost and I have to say that I'm still at 33 lbs...

I just called and made an appointment to get another fill. I'm really stressing on this. I'm partly worried that the birth control/Lexapro combination is making it harder for me to lose. 

I know I need to get working out again, and drink more water. I really really try hard to get my liquids in, and I CAN tell a big difference in my hunger, and my thinking about food! Now that my sister is living with me, there is tons of sugary-terrible-for-you things to eat around here, thanks to her having a 2 yr old and a bad sweet tooth. These things were never a problem for me before WLS because I didn't buy them, so they were never here for me to eat!

Ugggg