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Mar 31, 2008

SOOO, I weighed myself this morning... I know you're not supposed to weigh every day, but I did, so there. And I'm up to 46.2 lbs GONE! I am soo happy. I hope that number just keeps going downtown. 

The biggest thing is that in 1.8 lbs, I will be under the 100lbs-to-go mark! That is sooo exciting for me. To say that I have 99 lbs or less to lose will REALLY make me happy.

And only 3.8 lbs to go till I reach the 50 lbs lost mark! WOW. I'm so excited.

And this couldn't have come at a better time. I got into a huge fight with my son's father, and among other things, he called me.... a fat whore. I have never been so hurt in my whole life. I think partly because no one has ever made fun of me for my weight before. I've never been teased or picked on and I've never been called fat by anyone besides myself. I HATE the word FAT. I would rather be called a c*nt, b*itch, dumb*ss, sl*t or anything besides fat. Calling me FAT or calling me a bad mother... those are two things I will not tolerate. SOOOO, Getting skinnier by the minute is the best revenge! Now, only if I can stop grazing and actually eat my protein and get my fluids in, I'll be in great shape!

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Mar 29, 2008

BTW, in case you didn't know, eating hardly anything + working out =weight loss! Yippieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I'm at my lowest point since my surgery! WOW!

44.6 lbs lost! I FINALLY broke my TWO MONTH plateau!!!!!! I haven't been this happy since I woke up from surgery! I'm really excited to continue on this downward trend! 

YEA!!!!!

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Mar 21, 2008

i can't eat. i can't eat. I can't EAT!!!! 

Oh my gosh my band is TIGHT! I guess part of me didn't really expect anything to change. I think I've hit my sweet spot as long as I can deal with the throwing up! Ha. I'm sure I'll be ok once I get used to this fill. I'm in love with my band right now even though it's making me SICK! 

:-)

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Mar 11, 2008

FILL FILL FILL. I got a fill of .2, so I'm at a total of 3.2 ccs right now. I got freaked out that I was getting so close to being totally full at 4ccs but Dr Tom told me that in every lap band paitent he's done, not one of them is totally full, so that made me feel better.

I always feel so yucky the day of the fill and the day after. Today, I have a bad bad migrane, which I seem to get everytime I get a fill. I'm not sure why, but maybe because I am on full liquids and I'm not actually eating any food. I guess that WOULD do it. 

It sucks, but just like everything else in this whole process, it will be worth it someday. I know I made the right choice getting the band, and even though I still have days where I think I should have had the bypass, those days are much fewer and far between than they used to be. 

I do wanna eat though. And the worst part is that I'm out of skim milk, so I"m having to use my son's whole milk which is just FULL of calories! I'm babysitting and I don't have a carseat for my nephew, so I can't even run out and get some. So that means, the only things I can consume (until his parents get home at 4:00) are Water and Crystal Lite. That's healthy. I'm just gonna have to suck it up and  drink a couple glasses of whole milk with protein powder. At least make it as healthy as possible. And I hate the taste of whole milk, so that doesn't make it any easier.

I'm also getting sick, and so is my baby boy, and his daddy too. Even though we don't live with with his dad, somehow it still effects me! I got roped into taking him to urgent care last night. As of right now, Nathan has been sleeping for over 15 hours (since last night when he went to bed at 7:15pm--it's 10:20am right now!) That kinda worries me. But I also don't wanna wake up a tired, sick baby, or we will all be misrable.

I'm getting ready to go weigh myself (even though I weighed TWICE yesterday!). I've had pretty decent restriction in the past 2 weeks or so, but I've only lost ONE pound. I weigh myself almost everyday, which I know isn't good, but I just can't seem to help it! It's like I still think it's gonna be lower everysingleday, just like it was at the beginning, but NOPE. The honeymoon phase is over, and it's time for the REAL work. It's been time for that for quite a while, but I've just been ignoring it, and eating cookies and drinking sweet tea! UGGG....

But when I look at my scale in the next few days, and I see that weight dropping off, I'm sure I'll forget all about the troubles. I'm going to start going to a yoga class on wednesday nights at my gym. My mom goes and I'm trying really hard to make an effort to be there every week. They have babysitting at they gym for $2 and I know the lady that babysits there, so I really have no excuse, considering I am always off on wednesdays.

NATHANS WAKE!! Yippie!!!!!!!!! But now I get to deal with a cranky preschooler AND a SICK cranky toddler!


6 months

Mar 01, 2008

ok  i did a big long post for my 6 month anniversary, but my COMPUTER died, and I lost it all. I was too mad to start over... This ins gonna be a short one, but here it is.

I've lost a total of 44 lbs so far! For a while there, I was kinda depressed and I gained 12 lbs!!!! I think I can officially say that the "honeymoon" phase is over. One day, I ate about 4,000 of those yummy lofthouse cookies... But I got my shit together and I am back to 2 lbs away from my lowest weight since surgery, I even started going to the gym again. That really makes me feel good.

I'm doing pretty good with this fill... But I can't wait to get another tiny one when I go on the 13th. 

I've already thrown up once this morning, and I can't imagine why that happened. All I had for breakfast was one slice of whole grain bread, toasted with peanut butter! And I threw it all up. It kinda makes me mad when that happens, cuz it's hard work to eat! All the chewing and tiny bites, and not drinking... And all that time wasted. And then I want to eat again so much faster (duh, cuz there's nothing in there keeping me full!)

I am really lucky though, cuz my job is very understanding of the length of time it takes me to EAT! They know that if they pressure or rush me through lunch, it'll just be that much worse when I'm in the bathroom puking it back up! 

Ok, I know this was a short post for a 6 month update, but I have to go to work... It's our big 40/20 sale today :-( busy busy busy!


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