This is my first time to Rant. So hold on to your seats here goes. I have a lot to say.
I have been on this board for 9 months reading reading and reading. I am sooooo nervous. I need to make some kind of decision about weight loss and oh heck, I don't know. Every one of you are an inspiration to me. I say to myself, Am I Strong enough for this whole journey. Do I want to have buyers remorse. I already have such terrible depression especially PMS depression so will RNY make it much worse???However,.....
I have 100 pounds to lose
I have sleep apnea
I have bad reflux, slow stomach emptying, poor esophageal motility
I have osteoarthritis in my hands and feet
Food is my crutch
Strong family history of Diabetes
I am out of my mind. Look at all these things I have, I could be dead in 10 years. Or a bigger fatty really not able to function. Please Help.!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK so, today I go to the Gastroenterologist for his opinion on all this and his recommendation.
Then tomorrow I go to see a new surgeon at Temple. Dr.Sorano. I saw Dr. Meihlain about 6 months ago I really did not like him. However he is an Outstanding surgeon. Shari that's your guy. Then.... here is the biggest RANT My mother is so against having any type of surgery. She however has been fat , thin, average, fat, fat, fatter and now fattest. She is 70 and now having trouble getting around, has bad heart and stuff. I do not want to follow this pattern and I am so much like her that it is scary. I know if I do not get this done, I will just get fatter. I am very good at Weight Watchers but like everyone else I will gain it all back and many more. Sooooo
Thanks everyone for listening I really needed this outlet. Glad I finally wrote something.
Like I said before, each one of you that reads this, you are all a inspiration and I applaud you for the risks you have taken and your sucesses.
i am a hemodialyis nurse and I love what I do. I want to continue to be able to do this for many more years. so please pray for me and that's all for now. thank you thank you thank you