It’s been a while since I’ve updated I’m still in the lingo process. It will be a whole year in June since I started this process. Which makes me wish that I would have started it sooner but there is no time like the present time. I believe now I am ready mentally than I was even 5 months ago. In my mind I was thinking that this surgery would solve all my problems and I’ve come to the realization that I have to work on me too. Nothing will ever be perfect but hopefully it will get better.

            I have a meeting with  my surgeon this will be my 5^th visit. The visits usually consist of the same thing. My weight is taken and they tell me that they are gathering things to send out which has been the last five months.  People are telling me that I look good but. As flattering as it is I’ve only lost 5 pounds and my clothes are still tighter as ever. I’m hopping to lose some more before my next visit with the surgeon. Before when I was pre op cloud 9, I had put my life on hold until after the surgery, I’ve started living again going out with friends and buying clothes getting my nails done and wearing make up . As silly as it sounds the surgery is no longer an obsession and the months have been going by quickly. I’ve been given a unconfirmed date for a surgery in May/June which seems like forever but in a way is right around the corner. I’m going broke paying for 2 insurances but I really want this surgery. You see I’m covered by my work and I also have an individual policy. The work insurance was a must and doesn’t cover the surgery and the individual policy covers. Anywhoo I’ll be updating after my visit with the surgeon.