Well hear i am, i ahve 2 days to surgery, i am so happy. I have done all the work need to start this new life. i am very nervous. im afraid to loose any of my current relationships but i know that i am about to go many changes. people will come and go. I had another quick consult with dr. barnes yesterday and he was very helpful. i took my mom and my boyfriend to make sure they understood what i was about to go through. i have been trying to stick to this pre-op diet but its killing me. I know that i am going to succed at this if i just keep my mine straight and not give up. I really want to reach 80lbs lost in 6 mnths that would put me at 240lbs. its crazy i was watching top model last night and one of the girls was 5'8 like me and weighed 138lbs. Can you believe they called her fat. i dont think i want to be too skinny. i just want to be healthy. right now i am taking 6 pills a day. today is my last day at work. i am sooo going to miss my friends but im only taking 3 weeks off. most everyone is excited about it. I just dont want them to be dissapointed when i come back to work and im still big. Oh well i will keep posting as much as i can.