i think God revealed the "handful" to me in a dream because i was dreaming about adam and eve and they were eating in the garden - they didnt have plates or an apron to carry the food around in - so, they ate out of their hands - a handful i guess.

the next morning i was in the shower and i was thinking about my dream - and i thought about my hand and it's size - then i thought about my pastor -he is 6'7" and his hands are much much larger than mine - then i considered that perhaps his hands were the size portion he would eat in comparison to my  hands and the size portion i would eat

so, always lay out what you are going to eat before you start eating
so, if it is cheese cubes, or grapes, or even corn chips

lay out a handful and eat it
dont eat out of the container  - chances are you will eat too much and be miserable


anyway - just thoughts

kf

I know I’m smart – in a nurse way

But, I don’t feel smart

I know I’m pretty – in a photogenic way

But, I don’t feel pretty

I know I’m sweet in a nursy mommy way

But, not sincerely

 

Does that make sense?

It’s like I am two different people

Maybe more!

 

Just call me

Sybil!

 

=)

I had my PS consult last week and i am so excited
i am going to have an outer thigh plasty

doc said scars would probably be very noticable - but, i really could care less about the scars
i mean, how often do we really wear clothes that show the outside of our thighs?
well, i dont know about you - but..................
i rarely wear a swimsuit and most of the time if i am wearing shorts - it is just around the house or to walmart or something - i care much much more about how i look in clothes than i do about the scars.

regarding breast implants - doc also said that if i get smaller implants that i will need a lift - because i have extra skin - but, with a larger implant i wont need a lift - i wonder how big is too big?

i dont want to look like dolly - but, i dont mind looking like pamela anderson or anna nicole!
hehee- i really dont want to look like any of them - but, these little fried eggs i have - have got to go!

tummy tuck is the last thing on my list - i only have enough money to do the thighs and the breasts - so, i will put off the tummy tuck for a while - since i carried most of my extra wt in my hips and thighs i am most concerned about them - the tummy only looks bad when i am naked - and as far as i know - i'm not gonna be doing any nude posing!  =) hehehehe

hubby wants me to do tummy tuck - but, again - it is definitely last on my list

i am getting excited even though i am going to have to wait until after the holidays - i can see the light at the end of the tunnel!  =)

yay!
kf

                 April 2007                       July  2008
                           I love my RNY  I love my life.
           I love the personal progress I have made. 
More than that, i love the opportunities that are open to me NOW - that seemed so, out of reach before. 
           
                  Thank You God and Dr. Syn
for changing things for me, so that the opportunity to run, and jump and climb and play with my children is there.The opportunity for a more fun and active life. My life is so energetic and fun now - I am the wife and mom i always wanted to be.  Now,   i can WORK HARD  &   PLAY HARD
                        Thanks for giving me an oppportunity for a 
                                      DO-OVER
  most people- dont get a "do-over" in life - but i did

my new friend valena  - had  RNY - and lost 100% of her excess wt (160#) and has maintained that . for 4 years! - cool huh!

so, i asked her "what keeps you on target?"

and this was her response:

"What keeps me on target is that I am VERY AFRAID of having a regain. You just have to focus on one day at a time and try not to think about the fact of doing it for the rest of your life. I have good and bad, and struggle with not trying to beat myself up mentally. And I try to move my butt daily. That has never much been my strong point, so I'm REALLY trying to get focused back on it now. I drink 90-100oz of water a day and I think that is a HUGE help as well. "

so, i thought - it would help me to post it here - and maybe help someone else too.

kf