Yeah I know long time no post, but as usual life gets in the way...and I don't feel like typing...I on this website all the time lurkin' reading other folks business but don't feel like keeping up with my on. N-T ways I've been divorced 3 months as of today and I am so elated. It dawned on me this morning when I had to write the date on some paperwork, then I realized that the clothes that I am wearing are the same ones (different black pants...but black...smaller size...same blouse...but looser ) that I had on three months ago. Things could not have turned out any better for me. So much has happened over these months I don't know where to begin. Well, actually I won't begin because I don't want to put all of my personal bizness in the streets (so to say) but nevertheless everything is so wonderful for me right now. On the 27th of this month I will be 18 months post op. I am not going to let that intimidate me either. Some people feel that you stop losing once you hit the 18-24 month spot but I am not going to stop losing until I say so or my body decides it's at a comfortable weight. I am proud to say that I weigh in now at 180lbs  !! Yep, that's right, I've lost 15lbs in three months and I know that is awesome. I would like to loose about 20 more pounds before I start matinance. Once I get down to 160lbs I will start hitting the iron harder than what I already do. I know this will possibly cause me to gain some but I would much rather gain muscle than fat anyday. I don't really (but kind of...always been a childhood dream) want to be a bodybuilder I want to be toned and cut up...not that bulky. I would wait until the 27th to do this but I guess I'll do it now cause it might slip my mind by then, so here's my stats as of today: My weight is 180lbs, highest at the beginging of my WLS journey 350lbs+ (stop weighing myself once I saw 350...but kept eating cause I fell into a deep depression). I weighed in @ 330lbs the day of my surgery (7/27/06) I lost those 20lbs on the 6 month supervised diet. Here are my measurements as of today: 36-32-42
Here are my clothes sizes: bra --then 48DDD, now 36C, pants--then 32W, now (misses...too much arse and hips for juniors) 10-12 (depending on cut)
tops--then 4x or larger, now smalls and mediums (can't beleive that a large top...misses or juniors...is too large for me! shoe size--then 9W, now 71/2-8 and I finally bought me some sexy boots that goes up my legs...now that was a WOW moment for me...I was actually crying in the shoe store. ring size: then 10, now 7. I am so proud of me and my prayer is that I continue to stay on track and never take my blessing for granted because me having this surgery was truly a blessing from the Lord. If you are reading this I hope I have inspired you in any way and always remember that those temptations that you encounter on a daily basis (as far as food is concerned) it's not worth it to give into. Yes, I have bad days where I eat stuff that I know that I don't need but I have taught myself to bounce back into my lil routine and keep going. I refuse to go back "there" and live the life of misery that I once lived. No, WLS does not fix nothing in your life, but TO ME it helps to look at life a better way and I can deal with different situations with ease whereas in the past I would have climbed back in the bed or in my corner with the covers over my head and cried and/or slept and ate my pains away. I truly am grateful! God Bless all who shares in reading my profile and I pray that your journey is great !
Much Luv!

So happy that this is another week gone! There is not much to update about. Still the same 'ol stuff going on in my life work, work, and more work. I am still going back and forward with these same 5 lbs that seem to go nowhere but I have made up my mind to not get discouraged and to keep on doing what I am doing. I have made the decision to start lifting weights everyday no matter what. I've start to see some definition in my arms, legs, and abs. I am so hype about the weight lifting thing. I've always wanted to be very muscular and I am begining to see everything form. On the other hand I might need to loose these last 40lbs before I start bulking up...I don't know. I've been battling wiht food all week long. It seems like I just want some chips so bad that I can't function that's really scary to me. I ate a fish sandwich yesterday and a few fries (Mcdonalds) but I didn't really feel all that bad because I know that I exercise everyday and I make sure that I burn 1000+ calories. However I don't want to fall into the trap that I exercise and burn so many calories that I can eat anything and still have no consequences to suffer from making bad food choices. Although I don't overeat and I am very aware of the foods that I put in my body I don't want to get into the habit of making bad choices. I could have very well ordered a grilled chicken sandwich and been very satisfied. I will do better next time...Until then!

I am so happy that this week is over with. Even though this weekend is my weekend to work I will be in and out of here like nobody's business. I am having one of those days where just about everybody gets on my nerves. It's almost like the sound of some people's voice just makes my mufu'n blood boil. I am the type of person that loves to see people acheive their goals whatever they are. Why can't people be happy for what I acheive? Tricks mean muggin' on a sistah for no reason, saying good morning with attitudes...I just stop speaking and be about my own business. I normally don't give a fu--you  know the rest--about what people say or think about me, but today I just don't feel like it. I got enough going on in my personal life to deal with that all other things are so trivial to me. Ok, let me get back on track here because I was just all over the place a minute ago. Antyways, I did good this morning with my exercises...I burned 800 calories on the elliptical and 200 calories on the stair stepper. I made this bomb a** CD to workout to and I was sweating like a runaway slave when I was finished. I made sure that the last song was something that could just get me hype...the song was Bombs Over Bagdad by Outkast (bob yo head ragtop--bob yo head ragtop) man that had me pumpin' I was hurting but I kept on>>I see what the bodybuilders mean now when they say workout to failure cause I wanted to stop but I kept going until I burned those 200 calories. See that's what people need to do...stop hating and get into peoples head to see what motivates them. If I see someone that I think has a nice shape (man or woman) or anything for that matter that I desire, I talk to them to see where they are coming from, see what not only motivates them but what helps them to continue to do what they do. Some people are so simple. Ok for real let me get off my little soap box...I'm done venting. I really need to find me some true friends to talk to because I don't really like venting on this blog thing. Till next time!

I procrastinate so much. I knew when I wrote that I would keep my profile updated that I was not going to be able to do it. I'm on this website every single day dipping and reading everybody's business and can't keep up with my own! Antyways, I was officially 1 year post op on July 27th 2007! Here are the stats...Started out May 05 @ 350lbs, lost down to 347lbs before I started 6 month supervised diet in Oct 05. The day of my surgery I weighed in @ 330lbs wearing a size 30W pants, 48DDD bra, and at least a 4XL top, size 14 panties, size 9W shoes.....need I say more! Today I am 205lbs. I focus mainly on body measurements so here they are------------36-32-45 (damn those hips). My bra size is 34-36DD, pants size is 14, I can wear large and some medium tops, my shoe size is 7 1/2 (some 8), panties size 8. For those who can't believe yes you can be over 200lbs and wear a 14, guess it depends on your body type. Alot of people are telling me that I am at a good size and I don't need to lose anymore weight but I beg to differ. It seems like no one understands when they have never been 350+ pounds. I was explaining to one of my associates the other day that there is not a switch that I can hit to stop the weight or the inches from coming off. I still want to loose about 40 more pounds. I really want my hips to go down to like a 40 or 38, have to work hard on that though because hips, thighs, and a** runs in the family. Aujah (my daughter) started her first day in high school a week ago. I have to stay prayed up when she is concerned because I see alot of me in her like when I was her age. My mom told me when I was cuttin' up when I was a teenager that if I have a girl she was going to give me a run for my money...and she was not lyin'. As for other things in my life all is well as can be expected. I am still going through alot of personal issuse that I don't want to blog but I am taking and dealing with everything one day @ a time. That's it for now!