I'm 4 days post-op!!  Still pretty sore but each day gets better and it's easier to get around each day!!  Needless to say, sitting around doing a whole lot of nothing leaves you alot of time to just sit and think, which I do best unfortunatley!!  In my last post, I mentioned my best friend that was there with me when I got the insurance approval....well he's been the reason of all my thinking!!  The week before surgery when I was on my pre-op diet, he was amazing.  Granted he's 8 hours away from me, but he did whatever he could to tell me he loved me and was proud of me and blah blah blah.  But now that surgery is over, it's just all different.  He promised he'd call last nite to chat and catch up but then he went out drinking (for like the 9th day in a row might I add) and I dunno....it's not a big deal cuz he's not my boyfriend and technically he has no obligation to me but I was sooooooo excited to give him the news that I was 20lbs down from when pre-op diet started and that's when I realized....I need to be happy. Period.  Not to tell him, not to hear from him, I need to be happy for myself.  I use him as a crutch.  Alot.  Definatley too much and that's always the way it's been.  We've been friends over 2 years and we were inseperable when I was at college with him, but we'd fight like cats and dogs and he'd get sooooooooo nasty and mean.  He tried to end our friendship 2 days before my college graduation and called me an "obese fag hag" (fyi he's gay)....no one in my life likes him, even our mutual friends have cut ties with him for the most part since they graduated this past may (I graduated a year ago this past May).  I dunno why I find it so hard to keep him in my life or better yet to cut him out but I'm pretty sure he's stuck in my life for good and I dunno how to make it easier.  I need to concentrate on getting better right now and not the next time he's gonna call or we're gonna fight.  I just have never gone through something this big before and instead of worrying how much I'm in, worrying about if we're gonna fight....it sucks, I hate it and I guess that's it!!!  Sorry just venting, you can disregard this lol thanks for ur time!!!

Soooo I kinda expect to be a complete crazy person the week of pre-op when I'm on the full liquid diet but ever since I got the call from my insurance on this past friday telling me they approved the surgery, I feel like I've been an emotional wreck.....

I had my best friend visitng the day I found out and I'm glad he was there with me when I got the news but when I said goodbye to him that night (knowing that I wouldn't be seeing him next till august after my surgery) i became a big baby and was crying and everything.  And now I feel like the stupidest things make me upset....anyone else goin on an emotional roller coaster like that?? Any tipsss??

I got the call from my insurance company....the surgery has been approved!!! 3 weeks from now I'll be in the hospital recovering from my surgery day!! How exciting....I cried when I was talking to the woman from Empire!!   I've been sending myself into total anxiety attacks worrying about insurance and I'm so glad I got word!!  Now that I can breathe and relax a little, I'm gonna start getting anxious about the liquid diet the week pre-op.  I wanna start making shopping lists now cuz I wanna make sure I'm totally prepared ahead of time!!  If anyone has any suggestions on how to make it through that week I'd love your input soooo just message me anytime!!

Although I haven't posted in the last two months it's not from lack of effort.   I was keeping really busy with organizing my life and tryin to get all my appointments taken care of!!!  After a lot of arguing w/ Dr's and secrateries and whomever I've come across, I have a surgery date!!!! As of now I'm scheduled for July 18th....let's just keep our fingers crossed that I don't hit any bumps with my insurance....I haven't thus far but I'm still really paranoid!!!

I had my first appointment with Dr. Geiss yesterday, April 8th.  It went extremley well and I'm so excited to set up all my appointments and get everything in motion.  I dunno if anyone is interested in my journey but I'm going to post anyways.  As of now I have my UGI and Nutritionist appointment scheduled and I have a few voice mails in for a few other doctors.