So DH and I have only been out once since DS was born....so once in 7 months.  And we were both off work today so he had planned an overnight getaway.  I still haven't had a fill, so I don't have any restriction.  We went out to eat and we slit an appetizer, which we shouldn't have done, and we split a meal.  We went and checked into our hotel and then walked a block to a jazz club to go have a drink.  We're not big drinkers and DH has a fill so when he drinks anything, he gets buzzed pretty quickly.  We had one drink....and split a dessert.  We go back to the hotel and went swimming for a little while and then the hotel had complimentary milk and cookies before bed!  I think that's why he booked that hotel!  So even though I wasn't hungry I just wanted them....we wewnt and had cookies and milk.  I felt so sick after that!  I told DH that I should have been better and he told me that I've been doing so well, that I needed to reward myself.  He was right, but I don't need to reward myself with food.  I feel so guilty and ashamed of myself.  But the only think I can do now is walk and watch what I eat.  I'm ready for my fill!

Well, I am 3 weeks out.  I haven't lost much weight since surgery, but I did do my measurements the other night because I was getting discouraged and I've lost 2 more inches in my waist and a couple in my bust!  I need to do them again and write them down.  I've been trying to do really well with my food choices.  But the other day we went for mexican food.  I was so tired of chili and everything else I had made with ground turkey.  Dh and I both ordered a childs cheese enchilada.  He ate his, and I ate mine very slow.  I had maybe 10 chips and half of my enchilada.  I was content so we packed up the other half, the rice and beans and brought them home.  I have NEVER done that...packed up half a kids meal???  It went through with no problem, and that's what scares me.  Although I go for a fill in 2 more weeks, I don't want to make a habit of eating out like that.  But I think I deserved it.  We haven't eaten out in almost a month, and when we did it wasn't even $15!  I ate the other half of my enchilada today and it was so good. 

The other thing we did, and shouldn't have was DH wanted some peanut butter m&ms, and I wanted some york peppermint patties.  I had a few of his m&ms, and I felt guilty for eating them.  I've only had a couple of my peppermint patties too.  Used to I could sit down with 3 or 4, and I've been limiting myself at 1.  I've had about 4 out of the package so far.  I've been craving something sweet, and popsicles just don't do it for me!  The good thing is that DH and I have been doing Walk Away The Pounds Power Walk DVD.  We just started this week, and we weren't consistant but we both said we going to start doing it more.  I am so glad that he doesn't mind doing it with me!  I've got at least 10 more pounds, hopefully more, to loose before October 18...my 10 yr reunion!  WATP...here I come!!!

So I'm 1 1/2 weeks out and I am feeling so much better!  I am so glad last week is over.  I've lost 17.4 pounds!  Most of that was pre-op, but it's gone.  I'm supposed to be on liquids until friday, but I cheated.  Not too bad.  This last weekend we went to my nephews birthday party, and while my DH had a piece of cake and ice cream....I had a taste of the icing and a little ice cream.  Then earlier this week I made some fiesta cheese soup, and it wasn't that good on it's own.  It tasted like watered down cheese dip, but it needed something.  So, the next day I took the leftovers and mixed it with ground turkey, taco seasoning and pinto beans.  DH put his on a tortillia, and I blended mine up and put some shredded cheese on it.  It looked like refried beans, and tasted pretty good!  I felt bad because I'm still supposed to be on liquids, but I was tired of soup!  Then tonight DH and I both ate it blended up, and he thought it tasted better.  Of course he put his on a tostada shell (no fair!  I want one!!)  So other than those 3 times, I'm been sticking to liquids!

I'm in a lot more pain than I thought I'd be in.  The gas pain has gone up to my shoulders and neck, and that's making it hard to get comfortable and sleep.  I tried laying propped up last night towards one side, but I just couldn't get comfortable.  The port site hurts the worst, which I knew it would.  It just makes it hard to move.  But, I'm trying to look at the big picture and look forward to the weeks ahead.  The soreness will slowly go away.  I've been taking my pain meds, liquid Lortab, or Hydrocodone.  And taking Gas X for the gas pain.  I'm slowly sipping on water just to keep me hydrated, my mouth gets so dry.  Anyway...one day at a time!  I wanted to post my starting stats, and my stats the day or surgery.  I wanted to do measurements to see how I did.

Starting weight: 234.5           Day of Surgery: 220
Neck - 15 3/4                             15 1/2
Arms - 16 1/2                             15 3/4
Wrist - 7                                       6 3/4
Bust -  49 1/2                              48
Chest - 43 1/2                             42 1/4
Waist - 47 1/2                             46 3/4
Hips - 49 1/2                               47 1/2
Thigh - 24                                     23

Not a huge difference, but I lost inches everywhere....in just 2 weeks!