I've been thinking alot about goals lately.  I haven't heard from the drs office yet to see if my insurance will approve me, but I wanted to write down some goals.

~To lose at least 10 pounds before surgery
~To lose at least 30 pounds by October for my 10 yr HS reunion
~To be able to walk into a store and buy clothes off the rack, without it being a Lane Bryant store
~To be able to cut up my Lane Bryant Credit Card
~To be able to shop in Victoria's Secret for bras and panties
~To feel as sexy on the outside as my husband makes me feel on the inside
~To be 50 pounds lighter by Christmas
~To ultimately be a size 10/12 rather than 18/20

This is a long story.  I started this process last April, and then found out that God decided that it was time for me to have a baby!  I felt very blessed and excited, but I still wanted my surgery!  I called the Drs. office and told them and asked them what to do.  They told me to stop going to the nutrition classes and to call tem after I had my baby.  My weight was 235 when I started.  I called them in february and told them I wanted to start back and they simply told me to start going back to the classes.  I asked them if I needed to see Dr. Davis again, and they told me no.  So a month before my last nutrition class, I called to see what the next step was.  The lady I was used to talking to was no longer there and I had to leave a message with this other lady.  I told her I needed to know what to do, that I had a month left, and to call me back.  She never called me back so I called her back 2 weeks later.  She got an attitude with me and told me I had to have a re-evaluation with Dr. Davis.  The next available appointment was a month after I finished my nutrition classes.  I bit my tongue and told her I'd take it.

Yesterday I recieved a call from the same lady and told me that she had everything she needed and was going to submit my paperwork to insurance but she's sure that it will get denied.  She said my starting weight when I started back was 232.5.  I knew it was on the border of a 39 and 40 BMI, but I thought it was good enough.  My BMI is a 39.97 and she thinks insurance will deny it since it's not a 40.  It's the difference of 1/2 pound!!!  Are you kidding me?  So now I have to sit and wait and pray that insurance will approve it.  I need this surgery, I can not do this on my own!