So DH and I have only been out once since DS was born....so once in 7 months.  And we were both off work today so he had planned an overnight getaway.  I still haven't had a fill, so I don't have any restriction.  We went out to eat and we slit an appetizer, which we shouldn't have done, and we split a meal.  We went and checked into our hotel and then walked a block to a jazz club to go have a drink.  We're not big drinkers and DH has a fill so when he drinks anything, he gets buzzed pretty quickly.  We had one drink....and split a dessert.  We go back to the hotel and went swimming for a little while and then the hotel had complimentary milk and cookies before bed!  I think that's why he booked that hotel!  So even though I wasn't hungry I just wanted them....we wewnt and had cookies and milk.  I felt so sick after that!  I told DH that I should have been better and he told me that I've been doing so well, that I needed to reward myself.  He was right, but I don't need to reward myself with food.  I feel so guilty and ashamed of myself.  But the only think I can do now is walk and watch what I eat.  I'm ready for my fill!