Ok - I am going to do three more months of the diet so I have 6 months consecutive. I posted on the board
(something I never do) and received some great advice and reassurance. So, I called the surgeons office and told them my decision, I called my HR person to find out about if we were going to change insurance companies, and I called my doctor and scheduled three months worth of appointments. I will now finish on November 1st.
I can only wallow for so long
-- about 12 hours -- and then I had to just come to the realization that this is not in my hands -- this is in God's hands. Timing is His -- if I let it.
I can't feel sorry for myself and I can't sit around complaining about it. Obviously, God has his plan -- otherwise this wouldn't be the third time of trying to get here. So, if He is willing, I'll probably have this thing around January. The plus side to that is my flex spending account will be full and I'll have no out of pocket expenses that comes out of the family budget. My work should be in a good place by then. I am working on national projects that are very high profile for my company and really need to be on my game until January. And, January is a good time because it's a new year, a new me?
So, I am going to make a pledge -- I am not going to update again until I know for sure that this story has an ending/beginning. God bless you all and keep losing out there.