Kelly B.

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Just read a great post  --- I had to copy it here.  This is a healing prayer that a nun in a Catholic hospital prayed for a wonderful Jewish patient who had WLS.  Faith oversteps so many boundaries.  I am taking this prayer with me.

Make me an instrument of Your healing: when I am weak and in pain, help me to rest;
when I am anxious, help me to wait; when I am fearful, help me to trust;
when I am lonely, help me to love; when I place You apart from me, help me to know You are near.

Grant me not so much to demand everything from myself as to let others help me;
nor to expect others to cure me as to do my own part toward getting better.
Grant me not so much to seek escape, as to face myself and learn the depths of Your love.
For it is in being uncertain and not in control, that we find true faith,
in knowing the limits of mind and body that we find wholeness of spirit,
and in passing through death that we find life that lasts forever.

It's Thanksgiving morning 2010.  I am all alone right now.  It's not what you think --- this is good and I'll be with all my family in a few hours.  The hubby and Noah just left for his parents house, Kait is at her other grandparents, Cade is already at Jason's parents house and I have a couple of blissful hours to myself.

I want to say I am extremely thankful for all that God has done for me.  Without His guidance, I am nothing.  My faith has sustained me through so much.  My faith has given me great joy. 

I am grateful beyond belief for my family --- all of them --- immediate and extended.  My kids are my biggest joy and I am extremely proud to be their mom and thankful that God chose me to be a part of their lives.  They are beautiful people who have so much to offer this world!

I am thankful for my darling hubby -- he is my best friend and lover.  He drives me crazy and it hasn't always been easy but we always seem to work through it.  We keep each other accountable and he makes me laugh.  He makes me see beyond my squirrel cage.  For that, I am grateful.

I am thankful for having a wonderful extended family -- My parents, Jason's parents, brothers, sisters, nieces and nephews.  They are always there when you need them and I can always count on them.
 
I am thankful for my job which has allowed me to support my family in a time of great despair in the economy -- to be able to support my family while my husband healed and discovered his new life plan.

I am thankful for this website --- to learn through so many peoples experiences and to share my own.  How cool is that?  Here -- we are just people -- helping each other go through the phases of life -- that is powerful.

God bless you all on this Thanksgiving 2010 --- May you find what you are most thankful for and share that with others. 
Love,

Kelly

Cannot even think....I am so happy.

This weekend for fun my daughter and I went to a psychic fair and had a reading done.  The lady told many things that were true but what you would expect.  So she wanted to know if I had any questions.  I asked her about the surgery and if I will have it on December 15th.  She said she did not see it happening because something was wrong with the paperwork submitted and she thought that they would come back with something else to do before approving the surgery.  She also said that if I have the surgery I will have complications that will require subsequent hospital/surgeries.  I was a little bummed but then you never know what to believe.  So I asked another psychic there what she saw and she saw the same thing.  But, she clarified that since I knew complications could happen that I need to do everything by the book before and after surgery.  That that is the information as they know it today but if I act on the information, then I can alter that -- free will. 

Soooo, I called the insurance company today to see if my paperwork had been received.  The representative said that no, it had not.  I asked him to check in again that I know she submitted it.  He said that she may have sent it to them but since my request was denied the last time, that it would have to go through the Appeals process and she would have to send it to a different department.  I then call the surgeons office to speak with Heather (the person handling all the paperwork since last year) -- now mind you,  I hand delivered the paperwork, I explained about the urgency to have this done correctly, she assured me that she would call that day to make sure they received it, and she was the one who told me that it didn't have to go through appeals -- I only needed to send over the updated information.  When she called me back, her comment to me was "that is why we don't schedule a surgery until the insurance paperwork is approved" --- Are  you bleeping kidding me?  I have spoken with this women every month or so for over a year.  She has worked with my carrier on this twice before.  She knows that my coverage changes and I probably will not be able to have this surgery covered after this year --- I did keep my cool.  Asked her to verify that it was received and now I am going to call the appeals department daily to see that it is reviewed.  Doesn't this women realize what she is doing?  That this is life changing and not something you mess around with?  URGHHHHH>>>>>>>

I am a big believer in God --- I do have a lot of faith.  I have a lot of thinking to do.  Maybe He doesn't want me to do this.....Maybe He's trying to tell me something.  I am just going to pray for guidance and patience.  God Bless!  Keep losing out there.

Today was my last appointment!!!    I had my flu shot, a TB test (I was exposed earlier this year) and a chest x-ray AND GOT MY LAST SHEET FILLED OUT!  I then walked it over to the surgeons office down the street and hand delivered it to Heather at Centennial.  I have to say I didn't really lose or gain.  I am a pound more than last month.  So, I have started my vitamin regiment and the doc put me on antibiotics since I have been sick twice in one month.  I am going to do everything I can to stay healthy. 

I spoke with my buddy, Cathy, who works for the same company as me and is having surgery two days before me.  Hey there Cathy!!!  Isn't it funny?  She and I met here on this website.  We're both in TN but in different offices -- we both work from home.  So say a prayer for us!  Keep losing and God bless you all.