Kelly B.

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Wow, cannot believe it has been since January when I last updated.  Lot's going on this year.  Kid's senior year of high school - one did great, the other not so well....I have been separated from the hubby since last October and have agreed not to file the paperwork until next month as I wanted him to have insurance and the ability to work out his issues.  I am learning to let go -- somewhat....Never knew that I was a co-dependent person.  I always had this vision of me as independent and strong -- and, I am to some extent but boy am I unhealthy when it comes to relationships!  I don't think I will date for a very long time and I certainly do not want to get married again.  I did make some big girl decisions on my own -- bought a Jeep and a house, enrolled the youngest in private school and have really been focused on rebuilding my life with some safety, security, and stability.  The three S's.  I have maintained my weight throughout this process.  I weighed in this morning at 129 lbs.  Not too shabby!  I am doing what I have described on here a thousand times....following the rules.  I do have a twist to the story.  I have a side effect from surgery.  I now have reactive hypoglycemia.  Supposedly doesn't happen often but can happen with patients who do not have type 2 diabetes and have the R&Y procedure.  It started 5 months ago and it was scary.  I was in a car rental bus when all of a sudden I broke out in a sweat, got very dizzy, nauseous, and felt like I was going to pass out.  Instinctively I knew to go to the vending machine to get crackers and water.  It happened a few more times and I started researching what it was.  I didn't go to the doctor but I had been around my husband enough to recognize the signs of low blood sugar.  It's ok -- at least I will be forced to keeps my carbs lower and be very aware of my food intake even as my body adjusts to allow more food.  Still can't eat raw veggies or salad.  I tried eating half of a salad and was so ill within 20 minutes.  Nothing like negative reinforcement to keep me in check.  We shall see how the rest of the year goes.  Life is funny --- God has been good and he has watched over me.  I know he continues to work in my life and I pray I can do the right thing in his honor.  God bless and keep losing out there!