My Story..... well, here we go.

I was a normal weight until I was about 16 years old.  Now I'm not totally sure what happened at that time, I started dating a new guy, who I ended up getting married to.  Did he have something to do with it? Possibly, I don't know.  I just know that I haven't been a normal weight since....altho, I divorced him and remarried a wonderful and supportive man.

I have health problems as we all do, I am wanting to be healthy and feel good again.  I'm so tired of feeling awful all the time, on the inside and the outside. 

I hate getting all dressed up to go somewhere and then looking in the mirror and feeling like I just want to hide because I am huge.

The strange part is this, I don't FEEL like a fat person, nor do I think like one (about myself).  I feel beautiful and sexy until I look in the mirror and see the whale that looks back.

How did this happen to me?  Well, I'm not sure, I know some how it has...  I have tried EVERY diet known to man from starvation to counting calories, carbs and everything else you can possibly count.  I have done liquid diets (remember the cambridge stuff?) I have done special meals, I have done excercise until I'm blue in the face of every type from Tia Chi, to free weights.  I drop some weight, then if I slack off for even a week, it's back, plus some.

If you look at my family tree on either paternal or maternal sides, you will see a lineage of plus size women with the exception of a few.

I am hoping to find a way, with the help of God and all of you, to get WLS.  I need to be a normal weight so that I can enjoy my wonderful grandchildren for years to come.  I want to dance at their weddings.