I am so proud of myself.  I left the chiropractor's office to get my back adjusted a bit (probably from being so immobile last week while I was sick with a sinus infection which turned into bronchitis) and went to Red's to work out.  My plan was initially just to walk, but I decided to ask a fitness counselor to devise a program for me.  The young man was so nice, and of course fine as heck!  Anyway, he developed a total body workout plan than includes the things I like. He also said that my form was good. I'm proud of me. I hope to discipline myself and prove to MYSELF that I can do this.  Yes, I'm afraid...afraid of succeding, but I know God is on my side, and I rebuke the spirit of fear right now, Lord!  I'm very full now after chili dinner because I drank too soon after eating. Habit.  I'll have to watch that. No real worries about my 1-month follow-up with Dr. Chu and the dietitian on Wednesday.

I'm upset with myself.  I've been wondering if I am eating too much.  I even wondered if my pouch was too small or my surgeon made a mistake and gave me a Lap-Band instead of the RNY!!!  I average 600-800 calories per day, but I have been ill with a sinus infection for the last week and have struggled to get in enough protein as well as walk like I had done before this illness.  I've become a slave to the scale, and it has hovered in the same range for about a week.  I panicked when I seemed to have GAINED 4 pounds at the 2-week mark!  I am trying to be comfortable with the fact that I have lost about 23 pounds since surgery and not be too upset that the loss isn't faster.  I'm impatient and wanting faster results, and I have beat myself up over trying more solid foods sooner than I should have, figuring this is why I have failed to lose larger amounts like others on the site have.  I will forgive myself and move on. Celebrae the success of a 36 pound total loss since 2 weeks pre-op.