Well today marks day #5 on the liquid diet and I am pleased to say that I have not been hungry once.  I have been having a protein shake for breakfast, soup/broth for a morning snack, soup for lunch, and then a shake and soup for dinner.  I do notice a HUGE decrease in energy.  Sitting at my desk right now I am literally exhausted.  I am taking a multivitamin and calcium with vitamin D as recommended but I am still so tired.

I took my son to the grocery store this morning and he got 2 fresh hot donuts.  In the car as I was drinking my yummy Muscle Milk I looked over as caught a whiff of the sweet smell of the donuts and my eyes immediately filled up with tears.  I almost cried over his donuts.  He looked at me and said "don't cry mom because if you cry you will make me cry".  That is the first time that I have wanted something that I couldn't have.  I wanted that donut LOL but instead I took another drink of my muscle milk and resisted the temptation.  

Next week is both Thanksgiving and my birthday so I am a little worried.  They do have no sugar added birthday cake ice cream...maybe I can make me a shake for my bday and I have the sugar free Davinci syrup in Pumpkin Pie flavor that I have been saving for Thanksgiving.  I am hoping if I can stay out of the house and busy I won't be too miserable on either day.  Surgery is next Monday so I am super excited to get this over with so I can move on to the next phase in my life. 

 So today is the first day of my 2 week liquid diet.  I have to admit that the last week I have ate and ate and ate and ate some more.  I had this mind set that I had to get everything in before today so that I could start this liquid diet on a happy positive note.  And I must admit that while I probably gained 2 pounds in the last week I work up this morning ready for the challenge.  I am ready to try this liquid diet and actually succeed.   It is the start of the process, 2 weeks until surgery!  The different emotions that I am feeling right now are intense.  I am happy, excited, scared, anxious, worried, and the list could go on forever.
I feel that this 2 weeks will somewhat set the tone for the surgery, recovery, and my success after surgery.  I have Pre-Op on the 18th this Thursday so I have a list of questions that I can't wait to ask the doctor.  Time is moving right along!!!

So....today I met with the nutritionist and got my marching orders for the 2 week liquid diet.  The surgeon told me back in August when I met him that if I gained even 1 pound he would not do the surgery.  Well I lost 1 pound so I am good to go.  Everything seems to be on track for 11/29/10!!!!  I am super excited.


I am however a little worried about Thanksgiving...and my birthday which is the day after Thanksgiving.  No turkey, no ham, no pumpkin pie, no birthday cake. 

I hope that I have the will power to not eat all those yummy things that we are going to have at our house.  I will be sipping my broth, or maybe I can make a pumpkin smoothie!  Wonder if turkey can go in the blender?  LOL

I hate to admit it but I have been wishing the time away.  I have had an outpouring of emotions since I received my initial email stating that Medicaid had approved me.  Then it took about 2 weeks to get a surgery date...so it has been set for November 29th!  I am excited, scared, nervous, worried, anxious, so many emotions in such little time.  But FINALLY it is November.....TWENTY SEVEN DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!   Woooo hooooo.  I have been overweight my entire life, so to know that it is right around the corner is unbelievable.  I have read, re-read, and read again all the emails, the meal plans, the surgery outline everything I can get my hands on that deals with the RNY.  I have talked to my family, friends, coworkers, ect.  Everything has been planned out and I meet with the NUT on November 3rd.    Then back on the 18th for Pre-op.  So things are finally moving right along!!!