Met Someone New!!!!! (not weight loss related)

Jan 02, 2012

Happy New Year!!!!!!  2012 is already off to an amazing start.  Well.....I met someone new....her name is Kathy!!!  LOL she is actually pretty cool once you get to know her.  I have put everyone and everything before myself over the last 3 years that I completely forgot who Kathy was exactly, so it is nice to get to know her once again.  I finally after 32 years of always trying to make everyone else happy have decided that it is time that I make myself happy!  So this afternoon after work I am going to sign the lease on my new apartment!!!!  I will be moving in the end of the month!!!!!!  Since I came to Florida and met my ex everything has been about helping him, making sure he has what he needs, making sure his family is ok, living by his moms rules when we were at her house, living by his rules now that he is out and about....I live in a beautiful huge dream house filled with HIS stuff.  Nothing is mine, I have no say, and have to listen to his rules and regulations even though I pay all the bills.  Well that STOPS NOW!!  It is so liberating and refreshing to be picking out my own furniture, picking out my own sheets to go on my own bed.  Buying my own dishes and my own forks and spoons LOL (the small things make me happy).  The freedom to sing while I am cooking, or sit on the couch and read a book in silence, or if I get off work and don't feel like cleaning....I will not have to clean :-) the dishes can wait till tomorrow.  Those simple choices that seem so minimal to most are all part of gaining independence.  I have always thought that I wasn't complete without a man by my side...well this new Kathy that I met thinks otherwise.  She wants to just be happy, to raise her son and new baby in July to the best of her ability.  She doesn't want to deal with the stress, the depression, the frustration, or the anger of having a man in her life that doesn't seem to want to do anything other than stay out all night and spend all his money on himself.  Its been a long time coming, but I am  happy to say that the wheels are finally in motion.  2012 is a chance for new beginnings.  I know work goes on as usual....bills are still due....the daily expectations and challanges of life are all still there but it is also an opportunity.  Forget the mistakes of 2011, and start fresh.  Its a NEW YEAR, new address, new life....127 pounds gone, I am literally a new person.  And with the baby coming I will be a new mommy with a new little bundle of joy!  This isn't only a new start for myself but also for my growing family.  My son doesn't deserve to grow up in an uphappy household and neither does another child.....and to be honest neither do I!
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