I'm BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aug 08, 2012

WOW, I can honestly say that I have missed being on this site!!!!!!  And I am very happy to be back.  I took a little break from everything LOL.  Baby Masen was born July 1, 2012 at 9:22pm, he was 7pounds 10 ounces and 21 inches long.  Today he is over 9 pounds and 23 inches long so he is a healthy growing boy.  I have posted a photo of him in my "photos" section.  He is such a joy and a blessing.  My c-section was scheduled for July 2nd....but he decided he wanted to meet the outside world a little early.  I can now say that contractions SUCK LOL, I never had any labor pains with my son Alex, nothing.  So when I had that first real contraction I knew that it was time to go to the hospital ASAP.  But it was all worth it and I can laugh about it now.  Everyone says that Masen is going to be something else seeing that he couldn't even wait a few more hours till the 8am appointment on the 2nd. LOL
I am happy to say that I moved from the city I was in....took the new job.....and things are going GREAT!!!!!!!!! Those who read my older blog postings will clearly see that the move and leaving those negative relationships and people behind was a struggle, especially when I found out that I was pregnant but something told me to just give it a try so we moved in May and have enjoyed it in our new city. My son Alex has made new friends, he is looking forward to starting the 3rd grade later this month.  Masen has fit right into our routine and has added such joy and love to our family.....although he will add even more when he sleeps all night long .  
The new job is very positive and me and my boss, who also happens to be a good friend, get along great.  Of course there are hectic days but the good days out-weight the bad which is what I was missing from my last job.  My departure from my previous employer was not pretty. My boss took it really hard, said some really mean and completely unprofessional things, but I stayed for my full 2 weeks and then ran LOL.  He has not really ever apologized, it honestly was more like a really bad breakup than an employee resigning which is crazy because there was never anything romantic about our relationship.  But he was mad and said hurtful things just like when a couple breaks up, it was a little crazy.  My co-workers all told me that he was just hurt, shocked maybe, but I honestly tried to be open and upfront about the issues I was having but there were never any solutions just broken promises....again something like a really bad relationship LOL. Lord knows I have had enough of those for 2 lifetimes.

WEIGHT LOSS:  Well when I found out I was pregnant I was 4 weeks along and weighed 173 pounds....right before I had Masen I was 207 I was heartbroken as I had promised myself I would NEVER be in the 200's again. But everyone kept assuring me that it would come back off and at that point it was more important to get the calories needed to be sure that Masen was healthy.  At my last post baby appointment I weighed 162!!!!!!!!!!!!!  WOOHOO, I was not a healthy eater during this pregnancy.  I stopped counting calories and basically ate what I wanted but in smaller portions....even the unhealthy stuff like the Snickers bars, cookies, Chinese food....which I craved like crazy with both pregnancies.  And for the past month since having Masen I have pretty much been doing the same thing....but something hit me this morning and I decided that it was time to get back to my routine and moving towards my new goal of 150.  So I re-downloaded my calorie food tracker, and packed a super healthy breakfast, lunch, and snack for while I am at work and I am really going to try and stick with it and lose these last 12 pounds.  I have TWO amazing reasons to work hard and try to be the best most healthy Kathy I can be....and those 2 reasons are named Alex and Masen. I made really stupid decisions before and I don't know if it comes with getting ready to turn 33 or the fact that I am now a single mother of two, but something has changed!  My outlook has changed, my priorities have changed, my way of thinking has changed.  Where I use to always but others (outsiders) boyfriends first I now realize that there are other so much more important things that I need to focus my time and energy on. I use to spend so much time thinking and worrying about my ex and our failing relationship and what I could do to try and make it better that I didn't have time or energy to focus on anything else and it literally took over my entire life.  Now I don't know if it is from the lack of sleep or the new location, new baby, new job, or what but those things rarely even cross my mind.  Of course he and I still communicate because he is Masen's father but our conversations are now very short and to the point.  I give him baby updates and we get off the phone. There is simply nothing else for us to talk about.  And I am OK with that its an amazing feeling!!

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