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This is just my space to kind of share some of the high's and lows of my rebirth. This has been a long process, but I feel that it will all be worth it in the end...on June 18, 2007 11:59 am
You know, the things we do to be healthy, fit, accepted- this whole vicious cycle is simply what it is-
I started this Dance in 2004- and thought I had come out a winner only to find I was just a partial winner- Yeah thats right- just partial-
I the woman who researches it all, who made her mind up that the RNY was the only way, the one who knew she would be a size 8-10 had chosen the best option for her success with weight loss. Only to find that, the journey did not end for her as it did for the majority-
In fact, she was considered "failed" with only a 45% weight loss, despite the fact that it was still 100 lbs....
Talk about disappointment-
You know, it takes alot of prayer to talk oneself into allowing someone to make additional cuts and inflict pain on your body just so you can become healthy... And trust me when I say...ALOT!
So here I am, almost three years since the original sugery in 2004- embarking on a more dangerous path on June 4, 2007- A Revision to a DS procedure ( rny of the distal intestine) which I accepted with open eyes and mind....
so it's now been two weeks since my revision-
Two weeks since I have sat here and asked God every day WHY I went through this
Two weeks since I laid there and wondered what in the world I was doing-
Two whole weeks......
and In the last Two weeks
I have been readmitted to the ER twice-
Thrown up so much that I prayed for a quick and swift death-
Thrown up until I have ripped my internal stitches and ended up bleeding non stop
Yet here I am, plugging away- still having faith and praying that God get me through this with no more complications and that ultimately, I will have success and HEALTH-
Time will tell- but today I exist...
Be the first to leave a comment.I started this Dance in 2004- and thought I had come out a winner only to find I was just a partial winner- Yeah thats right- just partial-
I the woman who researches it all, who made her mind up that the RNY was the only way, the one who knew she would be a size 8-10 had chosen the best option for her success with weight loss. Only to find that, the journey did not end for her as it did for the majority-
In fact, she was considered "failed" with only a 45% weight loss, despite the fact that it was still 100 lbs....
Talk about disappointment-
You know, it takes alot of prayer to talk oneself into allowing someone to make additional cuts and inflict pain on your body just so you can become healthy... And trust me when I say...ALOT!
So here I am, almost three years since the original sugery in 2004- embarking on a more dangerous path on June 4, 2007- A Revision to a DS procedure ( rny of the distal intestine) which I accepted with open eyes and mind....
so it's now been two weeks since my revision-
Two weeks since I have sat here and asked God every day WHY I went through this
Two weeks since I laid there and wondered what in the world I was doing-
Two whole weeks......
and In the last Two weeks
I have been readmitted to the ER twice-
Thrown up so much that I prayed for a quick and swift death-
Thrown up until I have ripped my internal stitches and ended up bleeding non stop
Yet here I am, plugging away- still having faith and praying that God get me through this with no more complications and that ultimately, I will have success and HEALTH-
Time will tell- but today I exist...
