My name is Lap Le. I'm 25yrs old 5'3".
RnY surgery 2/16/05 at 240lbs BMI 42.5.
Lost 113lbs.
Currently 127lbs BMI 22.4.
I have a comprehensive journal of my journey through the first year after surgery with progressive photos. Please take the time to scan through it. Thank you.
http://obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/members/profile.php?N=l1106318914
Getting the approval for surgery and surgery itself were a piece of cake. The hard part was dealing with the changes that life takes you through due to the weight loss. When I did my research prior to having the surgery, I thought the big risk was dying on the table or complications...no! Not for me anyways. I'm having to deal with the sociological and psychological effects of the surgery. It's hard for me still today to grasp how I've changed. Not just physically, but how I project myself onto others, my personality, my mannerisms, my choices in life. WLS has touched every part of my life. It's affected my relationship with myself, strangers, family, friends, and significant other. Some for better, some for worst.
Often times many members of the board speak about how this is just a tool not a "cure all". I used to think how silly that phrase was. I mean, there I was 240 lbs girl that dropped down to 136 lbs without barely breaking a sweat. About 10 months post-op my demons took ahold of me. Stress of the holidays, I started grazing alot throughout the day. I realized I could eat sugar, chocolate (my death!), STARBUCKS, ice cream and all the no-no's. I gained 15 lbs in a short month. Scarey! It's possible. Don't convince yourself otherwise cuz I sure did. I was in denial about my weight gain to just as I had been the first time around (which lead me into obesity) It's now exactly a year since my episode. I've lost that weight I've gained plus some. I'm now at my lowest weight ever in my life, and ever even during the first year after surgery (I'm 20months post-op). 127lbs! That's only 7 lbs away from my 17 yr old skinny skinny sister!
Do I see myself as physically skinny? ANSWER: no. I catch glimpses of myself as I pass department store mirrors and windows, but am surprised everytime to discover it's me looking back at me. Sounds funny, but it happens. When men look my direction, I always think it's cuz I have a bugger up my nose. Don't get me wrong, I'm definitely confident these days, but it's a different kind of confidence. It's one that makes me feel like I'm okay whether I'm doing something by myself or with others. I don't need anyone. I'm secure in myself to be as flashy, opinionated, or even quiet as I want to be. Best thing about this surgery is I've realized that I'm a strong, independant individual.